Chapter 42: Scum’s thought process.

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Translator: Soafp

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[Naoki PoV]

You only realize how great a woman was after breaking up with her.

I think it's a pretty common experience.

While dating, I used to think there must be cuter, more obedient women out there.

So, I decided to go find a better woman. But the moment I cheated, thinking I could do better, it wasn't what I expected. All I felt was regret.

But, when the affair, done on a whim, was discovered, and I ended up breaking up because of it, some time passed.

And then I heard that my ex, Maya, got engaged.

That feeling of “wastefulness” grew even bigger inside me, so much that I couldn't control it anymore.

Men and women, after all, go through a cycle of getting together and breaking up, searching for their best partner.

In the midst of this.

It irked me immensely that Maya, while I was still regretting it, found her best partner and it wasn't me.

──No, wait a minute.

To put it bluntly, Maya was probably the kind of woman who loved me a lot. Could such a woman find someone she loves more than me in just a few years?

So I concluded.

Maya must have compromised.

Women are lonelier than men. I bet Maya just settled for anyone who could distract her from her loneliness.

If only that annoying friend of hers hadn't filled her head with ideas.

Maya would have forgiven my affair and still been with me now.

Aah.

If she still had feelings for me, if I invited her, she'd probably come back.

No, I'm sure she still has feelings for me.

Even if she didn't.

Maya was always weak to sweet words.

Depending on how I invited her, she'd probably come back.

With such certainty in my mind, there was no hesitation in contacting Maya.

Sure enough, Maya fell right back into it.

We always had the best s*xual chemistry. When we first started dating, there were days we'd just keep going all day.

There's no way she could forget the pleasure ingrained so deeply in her body.

But, predictably, or maybe not so surprisingly.

Once you have it, you wonder, “Was this all there was?” In the aftermath of that peak pleasure, there's a wiser part of me thinking that.

Which is why, even after seducing Maya again, I never considered breaking up with my current girlfriend.

In the end, I think that was the right choice.

“……I think I'm pregnant.”

When Maya said she wanted to break up, I tried to persuade her to stay for the sake of keeping a convenient affair going, using pleasure as a lure. But her saying those words made me realize that it was no longer possible.

Despite having tried to keep things smooth with persuasion, that one sentence made me realize that the situation had become unmanageable.

Since technically it was considered an affair, after reconciling with Maya, we had been using protection at her insistence. But, back when we were dating, Maya had never gotten pregnant even without it, so I had let my guard down and suggested doing it like before. Looking back, that was a mistake.

At that time, Maya had been so wild. Just once—no, we did it three times that night, so once isn't exactly right. And Maya seemed so happy to be able to feel me directly.

But then, afterwards, Maya started talking about wanting to cut ties with me.

I couldn’t understand what had changed her so drastically. At the very least, she couldn't love her current husband, could she? If she had any love for him, she would have been overwhelmed by guilt the moment I was inside her.

“……It's not certain that it's my child, is it?”

“Well, I haven't… been with Kazunari. At least, not in the last three months.”

I asked to avoid taking responsibility, but seriously?

Was she that hooked on s*x with me? Anyway, it’s not solely my responsibility. Maya is just as guilty for agreeing to have unprotected sex.

Well, fine. I have no intention of taking responsibility.

There must be plenty of women better than Maya out there. I'm not looking to be tied down.

So, let's just break up. That should be fine, right?

The new life inside Maya's belly can be born as her husband's child or whatever she wants to do.

Even if it is my child, it won't be discovered by blood type or anything like that.