Chapter 46: I don’t know why

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Translator: Soafp

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590: Username: 1
Thanks, everyone. I'm not dead.

591: Username: Anonymous in Love
Did you get any weird calls?

592: Username: Anonymous in Love
Let's try talking in Hindi, then. You said you could speak it, right?

593: Username: 1
No, I didn't get any calls!
And my Hindi isn't good enough to use in practice yet.

594: Username: Anonymous in Love
I was hoping for a weird call though.

595: Username: 1
That's not likely… only my parents and siblings have my number.

596: Username: Anonymous in Love
Oh.

597: Username: Anonymous in Love
Sorry about that.

598: Username: 1
Isn't that normal? (blank stare)

599: Username: Anonymous in Love
Sorry, but I've “won” this one…
I have lots of “friends” on my LIME.

600: Username: Anonymous in Love
Those are all just news accounts and store promotions, aren't they?

601: Username: Anonymous in Love
How'd you know? (dies inside)

602: Username: Anonymous in Love
Let's stop digging deeper into these wounds… (near death)

603: Username: Anonymous in Love
So, what ended up happening with you, 1?

604: Username: 1
Ah, well, I managed to talk to that friend I mentioned.

605: Username: Anonymous in Love
Nice! So, how did it go?

606: Username: 1
……

607: Username: Anonymous in Love
Huh?

608: Username: 1
I ended up saying something super embarrassing…

609: Username: Anonymous in Love
Oh, now we're getting to the good part (leans in).

610: Username: Anonymous in Love
What did you say? What did you say? What did you say?
What did you say? What did you say? What did you say?
What did you say? What did you say? What did you say?
What did you say? What did you say? What did you say?
What did you say? What did you say? What did you say?
What did you say? What did you say? What did you say?

611: Username: Anonymous in Love
Just spill it, you'll feel better (big smile).

612: Username: 1
…I said something like “I want to know more about you” and “I want to get closer to you.”

613: Username: Anonymous in Love
Wait, just like that? Word for word? For real?

614: Username: 1
Yeah, it just slipped out before I realized.
But thinking back, it's really embarrassing. Do you think it was bad?

615: Username: Anonymous in Love
Oof.

616: Username: Anonymous in Love
That sounds like a confession, dude. lol

617: Username: Anonymous in Love
If a friend suddenly said that to me, I'd be freaked out.

618: Username: Anonymous in Love
Yeah, saying either one by itself would be fine, but saying both is a bit much.

619: Username: Anonymous in Love
You went overboard…
RIP.

620: Username: 1
Aaaaarghhhh!!

621: Username: Anonymous in Love
It's okay, you can scream all you want here.

622: Username: Anonymous in Love
Man, you really messed up. It's tough figuring out how to interact with people when you've been alone for a while (cold analysis).

623: Username: Anonymous in Love
Yeah, that was a bit too intense.

624: Username: 1
Ah b aah…

625: Username: Anonymous in Love
Oh, he's dead…

626: Username: Anonymous in Love
Rest in peace.

627: Username: Anonymous in Love
You always keep things entertaining.

628: Username: Anonymous in Love
Your “friend”: “Sorry, that was… a bit too much.”

629: Username: Anonymous in Love
If that's what happened, we should probably comfort him.

630: Username: 1
Thanks.
I'm really glad I have you guys.

631: Username: Anonymous in Love
Uwa, that's… heavy.

632: Username: Anonymous in Love
Yikes, too much.

633: Username: Anonymous in Love
That's exactly the problem, dude.

634: Username: Anonymous in Love
Cringe.

635: Username: Anonymous in Love
Is this the thread where the smelly 1 is hanging out?

636: Username: 1
Can I cry now?

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[Momo PoV]

A room in an apartment.

My parents won’t be back until late, so I’m home alone.

…And right now, I’m really thankful for that.

“What a face I’m making…”

I head to the sink to wash my hands and rinse my mouth.

There, I catch sight of my own face again.

My cheeks are burning.

My eyes are brimming with tears.

And my mouth—if I let my guard down for a second—immediately breaks into a smile.

Everything's out of sync, a mess I could never show anyone—not even my best friend, Ayanon.

—[I… I want to get closer to you, Hatsune-san.]

…Ah.

—[I want to know more about you, Hatsune-san.]

…No good.

—[You're the first friend I made after starting school, so—]

…It won't stop.

“Ugh…”

My cheeks flush even more.

My vision blurs.

The corners of my mouth relax—

“…Ugh, how embarrassing…”

Even saying it out loud doesn't make it go away.

…I’m that happy, huh? His words.

“…”

His hair is rainbow-colored, his movie choices are bizarre, and he’s always so nervous.

I used to think of him as such a strange classmate.

Now I'm the one acting really strange.

This is not a face I can show to “just a friend.”

“…I misunderstood everything.”

Looking back, it was from the start.

That time.

Even when we watched a movie together, ate together.

He was always—looking straight at me.

It had nothing to do with Ayanon.

He was talking to me, Momo Hatsune.

—“I'm sure of that. That much, at least.”

On that moonlit walk home, with his rainbow-colored hair glowing.

I'm sure he said that.

But I couldn't talk to him for so long, got jealous, acted out in frustration, and misunderstood everything, spiraling even further.

—I have to apologize.

I froze, my mind went blank, and I couldn't say a word.

He might hate me now. I don't want him to hate me.

I need to apologize as soon as possible.

I even have the note with his number in my pocket.

But first, I'll take a shower…

I don’t want to talk to him with a sweaty body.

“Ugh—”

—Why do I feel like this?