Chapter 27 | Yuuji’s Abnormality

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“Let’s translate the following English sentence!! ──Mind can be observed and known. But you can know directly only your own mind, and not another’s. You may look into my face and guess the meaning of the smile or frown, and so read something of the mind’s activity. That is not always right── Well, what can I say, it’s super easy!”

During English class…I gave serious thought to my current situation.

─ ─ Over the past few days, I have been able to get some idea of the symptoms I develop with women.

As it turns out, it’s pretty hard to talk to a woman I’ve never met before.

When I’m with a woman I’ve never talked to before, I get the same kind of skepticism that I had with my grandma the other day.

Even with a girl who is a classmate, I get similar feelings if it’s a girl I haven’t talked to before.

I also feel that I can’t help but feel uncomfortable when I hear the voices of the gals making noise in the classroom… It seems that in some cases, I feel not only suspicion but also disgust.

Even when dealing with women I had been talking to normally, one phrase in a casual conversation would trigger an alarm in my brain telling me to be careful, and I would sometimes feel strangely alarmed. It is the same symptom as when I was talking to the student council president Takamiya.

I was not able to push her away because I knew her, and I felt like running away immediately.

I can’t have any other woman approach me, and I can’t even talk to her properly unless she maintains a certain distance from me.

What the hell is going on?

…I can’t talk to anyone about these symptoms.

If I am not careful, I may be looked down upon as disrespectful to women, and my humanity may be questioned.

So I have no choice but to do my best and somehow find a solution on my own.

─ ─ However, there are exceptions.

For example, Nee-chan.

She is the only person I trust unconditionally…I can really talk to her as usual.

And recently, she’s been very kind to me. I still haven’t forgiven her for the pudding, but she is definitely the only woman I truly trust.

That’s why I’m convinced that if she betrays me, it will be the end for me. I can’t talk to her about it…I don’t want my sister to hate me.

─ ─ And then there is Youka as an exception to the bad side.

Whenever I see her, I feel a lot of traumas come back to my mind, and I have an abnormal rejection reaction to her.

However, I am largely responsible for what she did to Machida-kun.

I think what she did to Machida-kun was unforgivable, but that is only from Machida-kun’s point of view.

Unlike my mother, Youka is not my family nor was she in a relationship with me, so it’s not something that a third party can say.

But my heart just doesn’t get it…it selfishly starts screaming at me not to forgive her. That’s why I reject her.

But thanks to Nee-chan, I am able to get in touch with Youka again. As long as I don’t face her or hear her voice, I’m fine for now.

I’m happy that my relationship with Youka is gradually improving like this. I still like Youka enough to think that eventually we will be like before.

I am still not sure about a young lady named Kinjo Karen, who is clearly classified as a stranger.

She is clearly a stranger to me…yet I can talk to her in a relatively normal way.

I don’t know why, but for me, Kinjo Karen is what I would call an irregularity.

And I’m worried about my mother.

I haven’t seen her once since I became this way…so I don’t know what will happen, but I somehow know that it won’t end well.

I’m really scared to see her…

“I wonder if it’s going to get better?”

To be honest, I’m worried.

Why should I fall into such an incomprehensible state after such a minor incident…?

“Haah…”

A sigh naturally leaked out when I thought about the future.

“─ ─ ─ Ji~…”

“…”

Himeda Airi, sitting next to me, is staring at me.

It’s really depressing. I want to crush her eyeballs.

Still, I decided to ignore her. I don’t have to worry about that woman. She’s an unnecessary creature in my life…so Ishida, take good care of her, will you?

It might be tough because she doesn’t have a full brain, but I’m sure Ishida will be fine… unlike me, he’s a firm man.

And then I realized that the class was coming to an end. This was not a good idea, so I decided to concentrate on the class.

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In the end, I did not speak a word to Himeda Airi until after school.

She seemed to be in a bad mood because of the morning incident and did not speak to me from the other side. I would be very happy if we could maintain this relationship.

But that woman’s brain is so rotten that she will probably forget about it tomorrow.

I had no particular plans to go home with anyone, so I stuffed my textbooks into my bag and went on my way. However, as I was walking out into the hallway, I was approached by a woman I recognized.

It was the only upperclassman I knew.

“Oh, I’m so glad I made it in time! I just came to see my junior!”

“Student Council President…”

I have a distrust of women now, but even in that situation, I have a partner who is relatively less symptomatic…and that is President Takamiya, who is talking to me.

“Can you come to the student council room now? I need to talk to you!”

I don’t want to. I want to go home and play games.

“I’m sorry, I have to go pick up my sister who’s coming out to Shabba…”

“What? Sakamoto, you were in jail?”

“Yes… the food I made was bad… and I got caught…”

“Eh… that’s the only reason you got caught?

“Yes… I don’t know what to do anymore…”

“Hmmm… but Sakamoto was here today, wasn’t he?”

“Yes, of course.”

“…”

“…”

“Why are you lying with such a straight face?”‘

“I’m sorry.”

“Ufufu, I forgive you because you apologized honestly!”

What is this? I just apologized properly and she forgave me…? But well…apparently, she doesn’t believe everything.

As an apology for lying, I decided to do the president a favor.

I followed her to the student council room, and inside…

“…Good day to you, Sakamoto-sama!”

Kinjo Karen greeted me elegantly and smiled at me.

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