Chapter 23 | Are you okay…?

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～Youka’s point of view～

“Senpai!!!! I’m really, really sorry!”

Youka, who came to the back of the gym with Yuuji, was the first to bow her head. Over and over again.

The optimistic thought that since Kinjo Karen was forgiven, she deserved to be forgiven too, was gone.

When she comes face to face with Yuji, her desperation is so strong that she simply apologizes.

Please… senpai…

Please… please forgive me!

…

…

Silence falls over the place.

This silence was painful for Yang Hua.

She couldn’t stand it and was about to raise her head… but she absolutely had to hold back. Yang-Hua will never raise her head until Yuji says it’s okay.

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“Fine, I forgive you.”

“…Eh?”

I couldn’t help but raise my voice.

Because those were the words I wanted the most.

I’m so glad…I’m glad that my relationship with my senpai is going to be back to normal.

Youka finally looked up to see Yuji’s face after receiving the words of forgiveness.

“I’m so glad…I’m glad…”

This is the first time I’ve seen my senpai’s face today. I was too scared to look at it properly, so I didn’t notice it until now, but… senpai, why are you…?

“Why are you trembling?”

“…”

It was as if you were scared… even more scared than I am right now… why in the world…?

I was so worried that I rushed to his side.

“Don’t come any closer!”

“!?”

It was a yell…it sounded like he was scared of being approached…that’s what it felt like…I don’t understand anymore.

Why?

I thought you forgave me, Senpai…

”It’s… it’s not Youka’s fault.”

“Eh?”

‘Maybe I need to explain, so I’ll tell you now… why I rejected Youka so much… I didn’t really intend to confide in you, but for the sake of my cute kouhai… it might be a bit harsh, but please… Please listen to me.”

I was worried about what I was going to hear, but I silently nodded my head and listened to her words.

Why did he get so angry with me, why did he reject me like this when he forgave me?

I have to ask… at least I have to ask… because I really like senpai… and I want to know the reason for his rejection.

─ ─ It was something that I couldn’t believe my ears.

It was because of my Senpai’s mother.

I thought it was because of the incident with her childhood friend, but it was more because of the traumatic incident with her mother, which made her dislike me.

I regretted my actions when I heard about it.

Even though I didn’t know it, I was the one who dug up the senior’s trauma. I couldn’t believe that I had hurt her more than anyone else, even though I was confident that I cared for her more than anyone else…

“I’m not blaming Youka because it was all my own traumatic experience. But when I see Youka, I get really scared… I can’t even joke around with her like I usually do.”

“Wait a minute… that’s…”

Isn’t that much worse than being rejected?

He’s so frightened… he looks really scared of me… ah, is it because of my presence that Senpai has such a terrible complexion?

Does that mean that in order for things to go back to normal…Do I have to leave? As long as I’m by your side, you’ll always suffer? But if Senpai is not near me, I will break down. It was hard just to be separated from Senpai for a few days, and if I think it will be like that for the rest of my life, I want to die. I’m not lying about my feelings, then why am I with a different guy? Was it because Kinjo Karen stirred things up? Yes, it was because of that woman! That woman… that woman… that woman…

“No… it’s not… it’s my fault… hahaha… hahahaha… I’m really sorry… senpai…”

Resentment is a good thing.

I’ve been resenting Kaneshiro-san for a long time, but since I’m the one who thoughtlessly goes out with people I don’t like, I’m sure I’ve betrayed him somewhere… because it wasn’t until this happened that I realized that it was all my fault…!

“No, Youka… it’s my fault… I was really gutted in a weird and traumatic way… and now I’m in a similar position… and when I see Youka, it’s enough to make me scared…”

A kind Senpai who sees me crying and tries to comfort me.

He really doesn’t hate me… he’s just afraid of me… I’m happy.

But that’s why I despair.

I was happy when he said he forgave me… but it didn’t mean anything to me that he forgave me.

Because no matter how much I raise my likability, it doesn’t mean anything…

“Shut up! Don’t speak kindly to me! You can’t do it anyway, can you? Don’t make me get my hopes up!”

“…”

Senpai… please don’t hate me… it’s hard for you not to hate me even though you’re scared of me, isn’t it?

“Senpai…”

“……”

I’m fine, okay?

I’m just getting what I deserve for hurting you.

“Goodbye, Senpai.”

“Goodbye.”

Oh, it’s over…

I was running away from the place.

Because I wanted to make Senpai feel at ease even a little, and his happiness is my happiness.

So…I have to stay away from Senpai… Please find a kind girlfriend who is prettier than me, who is kind, who won’t betray Senpai…please find such a kind girlfriend.

“Bye-bye, Senpai…”

~Yuka’s point of view

Yuka and Takamiya were watching the whole thing from the shadows.

Sakamoto-chan…what are you going to do?

I’ve never seen Yuuji like that before.

Takamiya told me that Yuuji was cheating on his girlfriend. I was shocked and almost fainted when I heard that he had a girlfriend, but what he said after that was no joke.

Having the best guy in the world, Yuuji, as a boyfriend and then cheating on him… I didn’t mean to harm a normal girl, but I was going to tell him to stay away from Yuuji again.

But it didn’t look like cheating.

But there was a bigger problem than that. I didn’t think it was because of that woman…

“Anyway, I’m going to go talk to mom.”

“Hey, Sakamoto-chan? Your face is scary…?

What is she doing at the hotel?

And Yuuji saw her doing it.

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…After that, I can’t leave that Kouhai alone in such a state.

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