Oneshot: My Sister Told Me to Die, so I Wrote My Suicide Note.
Translator: Soafp
I woke up in the morning, lifted my heavy head, and checked the time on my smartphone.
I mustered up some motivation and got out of bed.
I greeted my mother and younger sister Midori, who were sitting at the kitchen table, with a “good morning.”
My mother responded with a “good morning,” but Midori clicked her tongue instead of replying.
Although it was mentally draining, I didn’t complain and sat at the table to have breakfast.
Despite the mental damage, I arrive at the dining table and eat breakfast without any special complaint, as I always do.
Silence during the meal.
The air is heavy, as usual, so no one is paying attention.
I quickly finished my meal and took a shower.
When I finish showering and go out to the washroom, which is a changing room, my sister Midori is setting her hair style with a dryer in the mirror.
When I took a towel with just my face out of the bathtub, she said “Just die”.
I wanted to retort, saying that I had used it first and she shouldn’t make such comments. However, this was also a usual occurrence, so I endured the mental damage and closed the bathroom door without saying anything.
This was the typical morning scene in my household. My sister hated me like an enemy, and her second sentence would always be “just die.”
There must be a reason why she despised me to this extent, but honestly, I had no idea.
I once subtly asked my mother about it, but she brushed it off, saying it was just a rebellious phase and didn’t take it seriously.
My sister and I are two years apart in age—I’m a second-year high school student, and she’s a third-year middle school student.
I remember that when she was in elementary school, she used to rely on me as her older brother, but ever since she entered middle school, she started hating me like this.
One evening, on my way home after finishing my part-time job, I stopped by a convenience store and thought, “Maybe I should try to improve my sister’s mood for once.”
So I bought several types of sweets and brought them home.
I informed my mother, who was in the living room, saying, “I bought some dessert, so please put them in the fridge for Midori and me to eat.”
The next morning, during breakfast, my mother told Midori,
“Your brother bought some dessert for you. It’s in the fridge.”
Midori replied,
“Annoying. I don’t want it.”
Usually, I would ignore it, but I got irritated, so I simply said,
“Got it.”
As usual, I went to school and attended classes.
Suddenly, my stomach started to ache, and my head began to spin dizzily. I must have collapsed while still seated, as when I regained consciousness, I found myself lying on a bed in the school nurse’s office.
After waking up, I was taken to the hospital by the school nurse.
The doctor said,
“I’m not sure of the details yet, but it might be due to extreme stress.”
The only thing that came to mind was the stress related to my sister Midori.
I left school early that day and returned home. I spent some time quietly sleeping alone in my room.
When I woke up after a few hours, I felt thirsty and decided to go to the kitchen to have some tea.
As I entered the kitchen, Midori had just returned home. When I said, “Welcome back,” she replied with “Just die.”
I responded with a simple
“Understood”
and went back to my room after finishing my tea.
Sitting down at my desk, I took out my brand new notebook, opened the pages and began to write.
To my family,
I am exhausted.
I have endured being told to “just die” over and over again, but it seems that my body has reached its limit.
I will die as you wish, and you can do with the rest as you please.
Sincerely,
Aoi
I left the notebook open on the desk and placed my smartphone on top of it.
I packed my backpack with whatever underwear and T-shirts I could fit and put all my money into my wallet.
Checking the situation inside the house, it seemed like no one was in the living room, so I quietly left the room and hurriedly left the house through the front door.
Since going to a friend’s house would likely lead to being caught immediately, I thought about what to do and decided to go to the train station.
I traveled two stations and got off. I bought some food and drinks at a convenience store and then dashed into a love hotel located behind the station.
The next day, I woke up, took a shower, ate the rice ball I bought at the convenience store, and lay on the bed, spacing out without doing anything.
Before 10 a.m., I left the love hotel, went to McDonald’s, and ordered only a drink. I spent the time idly without doing anything.
Around noon, I purchased a cheeseburger and fries in addition to lunch, then left the store after finishing my meal.
I entered a chain bookstore and bought a few paperback books. Then I went into a coffee shop and ordered a coffee.
I spent time in the coffee shop reading the paperback books. When it was 6 p.m., I left the shop.
Again, just like the previous day, I bought food at the convenience store and returned to the love hotel.
I repeated this similar routine for five days, but on the evening of the sixth day, I was apprehended by the police when I was about to enter the love hotel.
I was taken to the police station and honestly answered the questions they asked.
My name, age, address, parents’ names, school name, when it started, what happened to the money, reasons, and so on.
While having a conversation with the police officer and drinking the tea they provided at the police station, my parents appeared within an hour.
My mother cried, but I didn’t feel particularly guilty, and I didn’t shed any tears.
When I returned home, my sister Midori apologized to me while crying, but I ignored her.
I went back to my room and checked my smartphone, but the browsing history was in a terrible state, so I felt disgusted and turned it off.
From the next morning, I stopped saying “good morning.”
I also stopped saying “I’m home,” “welcome back,” and “good night.”
I stopped carrying my smartphone and left it in my room all the time.
After about a week, my sister Midori visited my room in the middle of the night.
She said various things while crying, but I got tired of listening, so I replied, “Fine, do whatever you want,” and lay down on the bed.
Midori kept saying something, but I ignored her and fell into a deep sleep.
At school, news of my running away had spread, but since no one knew the reason, it was treated as a trivial matter.
To close friends, I made up a random excuse like having a fight with my parents.
A girl in my class, with whom I often chatted, cried.
“I couldn’t reach you no matter how many times I called, and I was so worried and sad.”
The story of leaving a note behind was not known at school, but simply running away was shocking enough.
And somehow, I ended up confessing and starting a relationship with someone in that flow.
At my part-time job, I had contacted them in advance to change my shifts, so it didn’t cause any problems, but they laughed about the fact that I had run away.
After about a month, my sister Midori started saying “good morning.”
At first, her voice was small and I couldn’t understand what she was saying, but the next day, she said “good morning” again, and I realized what she had been saying.
Without making eye contact, I ignored her.
My mother started nagging, but when I replied,
“Then should I respond with ‘just die’? Perhaps ‘annoying’ or ‘disgusting’ suits your preference?”
She stopped saying anything.
After graduating from high school, I moved out of the house to find a job.
I rented an apartment and started living alone.
At the age of 20, I got married to my girlfriend from high school.
At the age of 22, I became a father.
My wife’s family treated me well.
They understood the dynamics of my own family and were supportive.
My wife took care of many things, and honestly, I was very grateful for her help.
I haven’t seen my own family since graduating from high school.
I still didn’t carry a phone with me, and I had moved out of the apartment I lived in after high school due to getting married, so there was no means of communication with my family.
I myself had almost stopped thinking about or recalling my family.
I focused only on my newborn child and my wife, and I had a happy everyday life.
Now I understand.
Even if it’s family, living under the same roof with someone you don’t get along with or feel stressed by, forcibly coexisting, is truly abnormal.
The idea of hurting each other and falling apart to the point of breaking down, is it really something that should be maintained? Perhaps it would be better for both parties to separate for the sake of each other.
In the end, I still don’t really understand why my sister hated me so much, but it probably wasn’t for any significant reason.
And as for why I became cold towards my family, it wasn’t for any significant reason either.
The end.
Non- epic
June 16, 2023 at 2:36 amThanks for the chapter. What would be the best way to describe the mc? Cynical? Psychotic? Maybe just insensitive towards his family?
in the middle of the bleak winter
July 19, 2023 at 7:36 pmOr maybe as someone who got tired of being the only one trying to make the family dynamic work, being the only one trying to take care of the other person only to be stepped on and offended.
Arturiax
July 22, 2023 at 9:26 pmSeriously? You think the MC is the one at fault? He made the attempts, more than any child should have to, the mother didn’t step up at all (except when it was the daughter who was on the receiving end) and she also didn’t pursue it when he pointed out how he could respond as she did instead of ignoring her.
mr K
June 16, 2023 at 3:05 amI say he’s just insensitive
Kosami
June 16, 2023 at 3:30 amI recall reading the raw of this a while ago, iirc, it was by the same guy who wrote “My Childhood Friend Who Is My Girlfriend Is Not Looking At Me” which was TLed by Zetro
Dog
June 16, 2023 at 5:09 amThis mc is cringe. He thinks he knows everything then default his assumptions as truth makes barely any effort and accepts results negatively. I know from experience and saw the same thing from other families working in family counseling. What a depressed mofu, had no plans in life, social skills are lacking, and never grew out of the phase as an adult it’s sad. Especially at the ending, this guy is the type of parent that wouldn’t even talk to their kids and end up the same as his parents. Watch his kid go through puberty and acts like the sister; MC will be “guess Ill die.” It would be nice if he has a legit realization in life and actually puts effort in understanding his family be it old or new. MC is insensible to life so low chance.
Havok
June 16, 2023 at 7:43 pm👍👍👍
Capid
June 16, 2023 at 8:30 amSo he threw a legendary temper tantrum because his sister was being a lousy teenager, instead of yelling back and making peace, like your average siblings.
I feel bad for the family, they didn’t deserve this.
Puck
June 16, 2023 at 7:52 pmJust as we don’t deserve this “autor-san” who is, at the moment, truly mediocre writer.
I hope that if he continues writing he will realize his huge gaps in scripting and story-telling.
Haintz
June 16, 2023 at 8:46 amI disagree with most of comments. Although MC not the best person on Earth, I don’t think it too much
As a parent you have to bulling in your own family no matter what. And it was bulling from his sister side.
You just have to suffer just because it you family, sorry I disagree.
He gone from abusive relationship on in the best possible way, but not in the worst.
Nail me if you want but that what I think.
nika77722
June 16, 2023 at 10:22 amThanks for the chapter. This guy accumulated so much stress that he passed-out. But yeah we should still see the family’s point of view
Puck
June 16, 2023 at 11:38 amYes, yes… However, I don’t understand one thing, why and I really wonder why waste time translating a pile of bullshit like that, instead of some chapter of the series already underway? I can understand translators’ desire to change and have fun from time to time. But honestly if you really want to do things like that, please at least do it on something with a sense not to waste time on bullshit really unworthy of a translation written by people who really would do well to do other things in life, for example hoeing the ground
Havok
June 16, 2023 at 12:04 pm👍👍👍U.r.rght Bro!
Soafp
June 16, 2023 at 12:08 pmI mean this does not hinder my work….
Puck
June 16, 2023 at 5:49 pmI am sure it is true, and I am glad of this, my comment is not a criticism of you or your work, but more a reiteration of how much the work of this “autor-san” is in my opinion unworthy of a translation. But this is still my personal thought. I would have appreciated some more interesting and better written One-shot this is what I think.
Puck
June 16, 2023 at 5:51 pmI am truly grateful for your excellent work
yurayura
June 16, 2023 at 1:28 pmhonestly just cliff yourself off and everything will be peaceful again
gohanish
June 16, 2023 at 12:24 pmIgnore him
ihy
June 16, 2023 at 1:11 pmAre these comments for real smh. First of all the parents are at major fault here. It’s their job to give necessary morals and guidance to their kids so mother and father should’ve reined their daughter in and disciplined her properly. A verbally abused highschool kid did what he thought would hurt them the most which isn’t that surprising and he’ll probably use this experience on how not treat his kids the same way.
Secondly this is a nice break from the ongoing projects since they’re usually convoluted and prolonged stories whereas this one is short and precise. Y’all sound really entitled bugging the TL like that. Thank you for the translations, i for one love these oneshots and short stories.
sjmcc13
June 16, 2023 at 4:15 pmMost seem to be ones who do not understand the culture, and that not every culture deals with issues by hurling insults and complaints.
But ya if one child is constantly telling the other to die, and the parents do nothing about it, that is clear favoritism bordering on Golden Child syndrome. Complaining would only make it worse, as they will then make you the problem child who needs discipline.
Feels like the usual “face” hang ups were probably at play, nothing was showing outside the house so the parents ignored it. Until he did something that made them unable to ignore it any longer.
Puck
June 18, 2023 at 12:07 pmIf you refer to my comment, I assure you that I understand the cultural references perfectly. To summarize my criticism is not to the content itself but to how it is expressed, having unfortunately had the displeasure of reading another story by this “author”.
wallabi
June 16, 2023 at 1:26 pmthis is funny as f**k
Jackmight
June 17, 2023 at 4:34 pmMan, majority of the comments wanted the mc to be like the cucks in a ntr. Just taking the abuse and not doing anything to not trouble the abusers.
Puck
June 18, 2023 at 12:13 pmUnfortunately it starts from the author being a writer of the NTR genre it is obvious, from my point of view, that his characters are of that type.
AqueleRonaldo
June 18, 2023 at 1:39 amI mean, this serie kinda Divided the site in two. To me, that have a older sister that kinda treat me that way… I’m on his side, Leaving aside the horrible writing of the author, it’s kinda awful to don’t fell welcome on or own house. If this isn’t a situation of “she she is in a bad mood” (it’s the case with my sister) and every interaction of them end up like these. It’s obvious that I will not want to keep a relationship with those people (the parents could tell the annoying girl to shut up, it’s obvious that they have a favorite) if he didn’t made the runaway thing, I would be totally on his side.
Milanin
June 26, 2023 at 10:50 pmSo many people are saying that the MC was in the wrong. How? Mentally exhausted, abandoned by the parents and being told to die every second sentence from the sister isn’t normal. What kind of batshit crazy household did you grow up in where being shunned and abused to the point of collapse from stress is a thing that is normal? I agree that the MC could have changed after the sister started talking to him normally and they could have reconciled, but I haven’t experienced any problems to this degree with anyone, so I cannot in any way shape or form say that I completely understand, but I would be damned if I said to suck it up. This oneshot could have easily had ended after the writing of the note with MC hanging from a tree or bobbing in a river.
Milanin
June 26, 2023 at 11:09 pmThis riled me up to come back write a second part. Did people just skip past that part where it says the abuse started when she entered middle school? She’s a third year now, meaning she’s been hurling insults at the MC for 3 years with the parents doing nothing. You can’t say he’s the unsocial one since he tried to bridge the gap with candy and deserts and was shot down. Once something breaks, if it isn’t repaired it doesn’t start working on its own. He found solace with a girl in school, he married and had a family of his own. What more would you want? A story where he makes up with his sister and has a family with her??? This isn’t Alabama.
Lascivous Centaur
June 27, 2023 at 2:36 pmDaughter, in puberty: Go away, dad!
MC: Welp, guess I gotta write another suicide note again…
sense-san
July 2, 2023 at 1:04 amI was surprised with all the divisive comments here.
The thing is that for the Japanese, sucking it up is actually the usual response, what this story illustrates is the fantasy of the bullied to stand up to their tormentors but since this is a fantasy, they do it in such illogical way that some people just cant just side with the main character.
john
August 18, 2023 at 6:25 amWell this oneshot got a NOVEL based in the first half of the history, here is the link “My sister told me 500 times YOU should die” https://kakuyomu.jp/works/16816700428010496303 its a interesting one
徵羅
August 25, 2023 at 11:24 amthis was quite the ending i must say.
canalnoodle
August 30, 2023 at 9:15 pmSo funny seeing people defending this edgy mc lol
He didn’t even try to off himself lool
Instead of wasting money at a hotel, couldn’t he just tell the sister to f- off and ignore her?