Oneshot: Even If My Childhood Friend, Who Was My First Love, Confesses to Me, I Don’t Care Anymore with My Current Self Who Has Become Obstinate.
Translator: Soafp
Very short one
“You know… I realized after breaking up with Senpai. The one I really like is you, Yuuta.”
That confession, which sounded somewhat like an excuse. I, Yuuta Koizumi, felt nothing. She, Rei Iwagami, was the first girl I ever loved.
I have liked Rei since I was a child. We met in kindergarten and became friends back then.
But I no longer felt any emotions towards the present Rei. I’m sure my feelings for her have died.
I think I had illusions about my childhood friend. If she liked me, she would never date anyone else, even if it was just a moment of confusion.
“Sorry. I’m happy about your feelings, but I can’t date Rei.”
“Eh…? Why not?! You said you liked me, Yuuta!”
“It’s because you dated someone else. That means you don’t really like me, no?”
“I do like you! Besides, I wasn’t serious about Senpai!”
“Is that so? But wasn’t it your decision to date Senpai?”
“I didn’t feel like I could refuse… Everyone said I should date Senpai…”
“Even so, why didn’t you break up with Senpai immediately then? You kissed Senpai, right? Did you do more than that?”
“But still…! I like you now, Yuuta, so doesn’t that matter?”
“It doesn’t matter. It may not be true from Rei’s point of view, but when you do something like that with someone else, I start to doubt you. Do you really like me?”
“As I said…! I wasn’t serious about Senpai…”
There’s no way to prove she wasn’t serious. Despite the differences in perspectives between men and women, can I trust someone who did those things and later claims to love me?
I have to in a relationship while plagued by doubt. I feel like I can’t endure that.
So, it doesn’t matter anymore. My childhood friend who gave herself to another man.
Maybe it’s just a normal thing. Going out with different people, breaking up, and so on.
It was just that I, who had become obstinate, didn’t understand. Love, as it turns out, is incredibly irrational and absurd, easily trampling upon the feelings we’ve cherished for a long time.
Shido Kasagi
October 25, 2023 at 2:07 am*just confused*
That why I don’t like one shots without context.
Declis
October 25, 2023 at 8:38 amI imagine the idea is that this story is so generic you can slap this chapter into 60% of the stories on this website and it’d fit well enough.
Most spurned MC’s act the same, the same pseudo-intellectual writing, all the childhood friends react the same, the same generic excuses.
It feels like it’s written by someone who has only ever experienced love through manga and light novels.
Miroh?
October 25, 2023 at 2:25 amThis one is uhhhh… Yep, I’m confused too. The missing context is the difference between MC being an overdramatic and naive weirdo or maybe being hurt by his childhood friend doing something or acting a certain way.
Based on what I’m understanding, I’ll just go with him being overdramatic and naive. Still no clue what to feel about this though.
Fahdon
October 25, 2023 at 5:12 amprobably the problem in this one shot is have a one subject Rejection
Declis
October 25, 2023 at 8:36 amThank you for translating it, but it reads very oddly.
I’m not sure if the author is just very immature, or wanted to write a Soapf-esque story but didn’t want to commit to writing for more than 10 minutes, or if it just comes across better in Japanese, but it feels like what a 14 year old boy would imagine in his head on the way home from school while seething because he can’t get a girlfriend, and imagining his crush would come back.