Very short one
“You know… I realized after breaking up with Senpai. The one I really like is you, Yuuta.”
That confession, which sounded somewhat like an excuse. I, Yuuta Koizumi, felt nothing. She, Rei Iwagami, was the first girl I ever loved.
I have liked Rei since I was a child. We met in kindergarten and became friends back then.
But I no longer felt any emotions towards the present Rei. I’m sure my feelings for her have died.
I think I had illusions about my childhood friend. If she liked me, she would never date anyone else, even if it was just a moment of confusion.
“Sorry. I’m happy about your feelings, but I can’t date Rei.”
“Eh…? Why not?! You said you liked me, Yuuta!”
“It’s because you dated someone else. That means you don’t really like me, no?”
“I do like you! Besides, I wasn’t serious about Senpai!”
“Is that so? But wasn’t it your decision to date Senpai?”
“I didn’t feel like I could refuse… Everyone said I should date Senpai…”
“Even so, why didn’t you break up with Senpai immediately then? You kissed Senpai, right? Did you do more than that?”
“But still…! I like you now, Yuuta, so doesn’t that matter?”
“It doesn’t matter. It may not be true from Rei’s point of view, but when you do something like that with someone else, I start to doubt you. Do you really like me?”
“As I said…! I wasn’t serious about Senpai…”
There’s no way to prove she wasn’t serious. Despite the differences in perspectives between men and women, can I trust someone who did those things and later claims to love me?
I have to in a relationship while plagued by doubt. I feel like I can’t endure that.
So, it doesn’t matter anymore. My childhood friend who gave herself to another man.
Maybe it’s just a normal thing. Going out with different people, breaking up, and so on.
It was just that I, who had become obstinate, didn’t understand. Love, as it turns out, is incredibly irrational and absurd, easily trampling upon the feelings we’ve cherished for a long time.