Chapter 15 | Unspeakable Feelings
Akamatsu Ikki.
This name has a special meaning to me.
The first person I fell in love with in my life.
The first person who became my boyfriend.
Until now, I have often been confessed to by boys.
It’s funny for me to say this, but since I was better looking than the other girls around me, this happened more often than not.
And every time I refused, I was often talked about behind my back among the girls.
Maybe because of this, I never fell in love with boys. No, I think I never liked them.
Even when I became a high school student, that didn’t change, and I thought I would continue to spend my life without a boyfriend.
But life is something that no one knows, and eventually, I found a boyfriend.
He is a very kind boy who is the same age as me.
Most of the girls I interacted with had boyfriends, so I often heard them talking about their love stories and such, which made me a little jealous.
I used to swear in my mind that there was no need to go to the trouble of telling such things to me who didn’t have a boyfriend.
But now that I am actually in the position of having a boyfriend, I understand how they feel.
Because I am happy every day, and I want to share this happiness with someone.
Well, as I said, I wouldn’t want to talk to a girl who doesn’t have a boyfriend…
He is kind and cool, thinks about me more than anyone else, and is a near-perfect boyfriend, but there was one problem.
Ikki is very popular with younger girls.
Maybe it is because of Aoi Rika-chan. He is very used to dealing with younger girls. Ikki is very used to dealing with younger girls.
From a younger girl’s point of view, I think she would love to have a boyfriend who is older than her, and above all, Ikki is very kind.
But Ikki doesn’t even notice that they like him.
They are not happy about it, so they try to make a move on him.
So when I am not next to him, it is not uncommon for him to be talked to by the younger girls.
Mmm.
I can tell that Ikki likes me.
But I wonder if he is really only interested in me. I wonder if he is not attracted to younger students.
What should I do with this feeling that I can’t do anything about?
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What is this strange feeling?
I’ve been staring at the guy next to me for a while now with eyes that could be considered murderous.
I didn’t do anything to make him angry.
I’ve been rewinding my brain about what happened today and trying to find something that would make Rinka angry… but I can’t find anything at all. I have no idea.
I feel as if I am holding her hand more strongly than usual.
I wonder if she is still angry…
She hasn’t said much since a while ago, and I didn’t get a good response when I broached the subject.
We have no plans to go on a date today and will go straight home to our respective houses.
So I will be the first to get off the train today.
I’m feeling very anxious. I can’t really put into words why I’m anxious, but I feel like I’m in danger when I look at Rinka right now.
In the end, we arrived at the station where I was getting off the train without any conversation.
I’ll see you tomorrow.
I let go of her hand and went to get off the train.
I got off the train, but Rinka’s hand never left my hand.
In other words, Rinka got off the train with me.
Before I had time to say “Why?” the train departed for the next station.
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