Interlude Chapter 5 | The End

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Kouki came home and we decided to have fun together for the first time in a while.

We first went to a café to give each other updates, then went bowling, and karaoke, and had a lot of fun.

I was worried about whether I would be able to act naturally, but I was relieved to see Kouki acting as if nothing had happened, and I was able to truly enjoy the second half of our time together.

(What was that? I was just too worried.)

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Then, a month after the reunion with Kouki, the four of us were playing together for the umpteenth time when Kanade’s cell phone rang.

“Yuu-kun. There’s trouble at club activities! It seems they want me and Yuu-kun to come over, right?”

“Seriously? We were all playing together. Well, I guess it can’t be helped. Sorry, that’s the way it is, so let’s call it a day.”

When Kouki and I agreed, Yuri and Kanade left for school.

I said, “Let’s go home,” and got on the train, passing by Hanasaki Park.

“I miss this place. If you still have time, why don’t we go and talk?”

Kouki asked me. My heart jumped for a moment when I heard those words. Because this was the place where Kouki had confessed his love to me and I had agreed to go just once.

But Kouki didn’t seem to be dwelling on the past.

I was a little wary, but I felt it would be wrong to force him to say no if we were going to continue to be friends, so I replied, “Just for a little while is fine.”

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It was still too cold to talk outside, so we decided to buy some hot drinks to warm us up while we talked. The conversation centered on memories of playing in this Hanasaki Park, which I also missed, and the conversation got more and more lively.

We talked about our elementary school days in Reisei, but gradually we got to talking about our junior high school days, and finally, we came to the topic of that time.

“Hazuki. Do you regret what you did back then? I have never regretted anything. And I never once forgot you.”

“The light shines…!? Hmm…!?”

I tried to look at his face as I called his name, and suddenly Kouki kissed me. I resisted, but I couldn’t pull away because of the powerful embrace of Kouki. And then, Kouki’s actions gradually escalated.

“Hey…! Kouki-kun, stop… stop… don’t do this…”

I cried and appealed to Kouki. But Kouki would not stop. On the contrary, he seemed to be enjoying the situation.

“Nn… stop it already… please really stop it… “

When I said that, Kouki looked into my face and said, “You say you don’t want to, but your face is flushed and you look so debauched. Hazuki is really excited too, right?” He said.

“No… that’s not true.”

I tell Kouki this, but the truth is that my body is tingling and excited. My mind is screaming “no,” “no,” and “stop,” but my body is not listening to me. The proof of this is that my hands, which are trying to repel Kouki, are not strong enough.

The truth is that ever since I met Kouki again, my body has been heating up every time I saw him.

Yes. I still haven’t been able to forget the pleasure of sex at that time in the third grade of junior high school.

And that day I betrayed him for the second time.

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Then my relationship with Kouki continued.

I don’t know how many times I have already betrayed Yuri.

In the beginning, I was scared that “What if I get found out” or “What if I get exposed because Yuri always sees through what I am thinking”.

But no matter how many times I had sex with Kouki, Yuri never noticed any change in me at all. Then I found myself becoming more and more aggressive in having sex with Kouki.

Sex with Kouki was always stimulating and I became addicted to it.

I had sex with Yuri, and of course, it felt good, but the sex I had with Kouki was much better. So I gradually reduced the number of times I had sex with Yuri and started having sex with that Spectacular Brightness.

With Yuri, I always felt warm and happy with a warm and fuzzy feeling in my heart, but with Kouki, I would get an intense pleasure that was stimulating and made me crazy.

And I just couldn’t let go of that pleasure.

Yet I really loved Yuri. I thought I loved him. Because Yuri is the only one whom I want to marry and become a real family.

That is why I truly enjoyed my dates with Yuri. I wanted Yuri to have fun too, and just seeing Yuri’s smile made me happy.

I had been in a relationship where my heart was filled with Yuri and my body with Kouki for more than half a year before I realized it.

I think my mind was completely numb at that time. I not only had sex with Kouki at hotels, karaoke rooms, internet cafes, etc., but eventually, we had sex in Yuri’s room.

The sex I had in Yuri’s room was the best I have ever had. I don’t know if it was the immorality of being held by someone completely different while smelling Yuri’s scent in her room that made me do it. But I stuttered to myself that I had become so disoriented.

If I had had sex with Kouki in my room, would I have been equally disturbed? I was curious, but I would not let Kouki up to my house. If my parents or neighbors found out, Yuri might find out about this relationship. There was no need for me to take such a risk myself.

So I really did not intend to have sex in Yuri’s room. The risk of Yuri finding out was too high. So when I left Yuri’s house, I told Kouki that I would not have sex in Yuri’s room anymore. But by then it was too late for anything else.

A week after we had sex in Yuri’s room, Yuri approached me when I came out of the love hotel with Koki after Yuri’s game. And Yuri rejected me clearly from his mouth.

After Yuri rejected me, Kouki was all I had left. When Yuri rejected me, I really did not want to go to the love hotel. I wanted to keep apologizing on the spot until Yuri would forgive me.

But still, if he doesn’t forgive me, I’ll go to ……. Next time, Kouki would abandon me. That’s what I was afraid of more than anything else right now. So I went in as Kouki pulled me.

I was surprised that the sex at that time was not at all pleasant compared to before, but Kouki laughed maniacally and was the most excited I had ever been. Seeing Kouki like that, I felt that I was still necessary for Kouki.

The 17-year relationship between Yuri and me had come to an end. But I wanted to talk to him one last time. I wanted to apologize to him, even if he would not forgive me.