Chapter 70: Himiyama-sensei’s honey class
“…… I see.” (Yuki)
I carefully folded the paper I had finished reading and put it back into the envelope.
The thoughts that were written in the letter. It had been locked away without being opened. For years and years. The feelings that were not sublimated on that day have not faded away, and she, Himiyama-san, has been trapped in the prison of that time.
If you ask me, there is a vague resemblance. A memory that I had long forgotten. One of those boring episodes from the past. But I finally realized that it had been tormenting her like a curse. For me, it was just a normal thing, but for Himiyama-san, it was not.
“I’m sorry!” (Yuki)
I bowed my head. That’s all I can do. The vast amount of time she had wasted. The days she had spent working towards her dream. The hopes she had. The ideals she had held up. It was undoubtedly me who had trampled on all of them. There was no excuse for it.
“Stop it, Yukito-kun. I’m the one who needs to apologize. I thought it might be better if I just left it at that. I thought it might be better if I could be friends with you, who remained oblivious. But I knew I couldn’t move forward like this…….” (Himiyama)
Himiyama-san bows her head deeply and profoundly. A vague memory. That day, I didn’t accept the letter that Himiyama-san presented to me like this.
It wasn’t for any major reason. I didn’t care about the contents of the letter, and I didn’t think it would change anything. She was leaving the school anyway. I had no interest in her.
But it was different. The future of Himiyama-san would certainly have changed if I had accepted it. I was nothing more than a DV b*****d who had tied her up in the past and kept her in bondage.
“If I had accepted this, your dream would have come true and you would have become a teacher by now, right?” (Yuki)
“That’s not true! I think I would have ended up making a different mistake somewhere back then. I couldn’t bridge the gap between reality and ideal, and I was hurting someone. The only person I ended up hurting was Yukito-kun.” (Himiyama)
“But if you hadn’t met me, none of this would have happened…….” (Yuki)
“I’m glad to be back with you. I consider myself lucky more than anything……. This is the future I have chosen. So don’t say it like that. There’s nothing for you to worry about, Yukito-kun.” (Himiyama)
“…… Is that so?” (Yuki)
“I’m really sorry. I didn’t believe in you at the time. If I had done the right thing, I’m sure no one would have been hurt. Well, that’s enough of the sad stories!” (Himiyama)
To change the atmosphere, Himiyama-san acted cheerfully.
I was contacted by Himiyama-san and came to a rental conference room. She called me up and said she wanted to practice before working as a tutor.
“What am I supposed to do?” (Yuki)
“The lessons are aimed at elementary and junior high school students, so I understand that you’ll be bored, but you’ll be playing the role of a student.” (Himiyama)
“I’ve missed your outfit.” (Yuki)
“I couldn’t get rid of ……. There must have been some regrets. But I felt like I wanted to start all over again.” (Himiyama)
As she said this, I could see that her hands were trembling slightly as she stood in front of the whiteboard. It could be fear or nervousness. Maybe both. Himiyama-san is trying to regain her pride in front of me, the source of what made her so. She is wearing the same fresh suit she wore that day.
If that’s the case, there’s nothing I can do about it……. With this in mind, I spoke lightly as usual to relieve the tension and to shake off the fear.
“Isn’t it Patsun Patsun?” (Yuki) [TL: Most of the time it means that the dress size is too small and it’s tough.]
“Ufufufu. Are you trying to tell me I’m fat? It can’t be helped. It’s been a long time. My body shape is getting worse, and I’m still forcing myself to wear this. Just for today.” (Himiyama)
“I’m having trouble keeping my eyes open.” (Yuki)
“Oh, you’re a troubling student. Shall we begin?” (Himiyama)
The atmosphere relaxed and I silently took Himiyama-san’s class. The content was simple and basic, but it was good to review like this once in a while. When I was concentrating, I saw an indescribably annoyed expression on Himiyama-san’s face.
“……Uhhmm Yukito-kun.” (Himiyama)
“It’s very nice that you’re such a serious student, but it makes me nervous when you’re so serious that you don’t talk. And if it goes too smoothly, it’s not good practice.” (Himiyama)
“I see. That’s true.” (Yuki)
It’s only natural when you think about it. Not everyone is so quiet. We’re going to be dealing with a lot of different types of students, and some of them may have troublesome personalities. This is no way for Himiyama-san to practice. What she needs is the ability to act.
“I understand. I’ll give it a try. Student Contrast: [Annoying Students]” (Yuki)
“What’s the matter with you suddenly talking like a comedian?” (Himiyama)
“Yeah yeah! Do you have a boyfriend? Are you free now? If so, do you want to have tea? Don’t they say that nowadays? Ghehehehe. Tell me your three sizes! Ghehehehe.” (Yuki)
“You’ve changed so quickly.” (Himiyama)
“I mean, what’s the use of studying anything at all? You won’t be using factorization when you go out into the world. I want to be a rapper in the future.” (Yuki)
“You’re so annoying, Yukito-kun.” (Himiyama)
“YO! YO!” (Yuki)
I had turned into an annoying junior high school student. The world is tough. Sometimes you may encounter annoying students. If she can’t get through these situations, I will be worried about her future.
“Fufu…fufufu… That’s right. If you want to know about me so badly, let’s have a special health and physical education class today. Fufufufufu” (Himiyama)
“I could have told you any time you wanted to know.” (Himiyama)
“No, wait, eh? (Yuki)
“Let’s have a private lesson, shall we?” (Himiyama)
“This was a trap!” (Yuki)
Yukito Kokonoe’s intelligence had increased.▲
Yukito Kokonoe’s physical strength has decreased.▼
Yukito Kokonoe’s bulge has increased.▲
“What is this bulge!” (Yuki)
“Do you mean this thing?” (Himiyama)
“N-no touching!” (Yuki)
Hahahaha …… This place is hell. It’s a hellhole. I’ve been taught a lot of things secretly in health class. I can’t say what it is, but it’s amazing …….
Then I remembered something.
“Speaking of which, I met your ex-fiancé a while ago.” (Yuki)
“By ex-fiancé, do you mean…… Mikiya-san?” (Himiyama)
“Yes. We stayed at the Suzuka n Umibara on a family vacation.” (Yuki)
“Is that so? Coincidence is a scary thing. What did Mikiya-san say to you?” (Himiyama)
I’m relieved that he’s not the one having an affair, but come to think of it, I think he said something about wanting my cooperation. But I’m afraid to tell that to Himiyama-san. It might make things worse. If Himiyama-san knew that he asked me to help him, she would be very angry.
If there are any regrets, misunderstandings or miscommunications. I wanted her to move forward, just as she did today to overcome the past.
“He said he wanted to meet and talk again. I interrupted him last time.” (Yuki)
“I can’t believe he would talk to an unrelated person like that……” (Himiyama)
“We were just making small talk.” (Yuki)
“Are you okay? Are you sure you’re not being used? I don’t know about him, but his mother-in-law is a tough woman.” (Himiyama)
“It’s okay, I haven’t seen her. It’s not my place to interfere, but why don’t you face it properly?” (Yuki)
“It’s really nothing, okay? It’s over and done with, and I don’t have any regrets.” (Himiyama)
I’ve twisted Himiyama-san’s destiny. This was a selfish way of atoning for my sins. If she could be happy, if there was something she could get back, I wanted her to reach out to me.
“Yukito-kun……. Haa. I understand. I’ll just talk to him.” (Himiyama)
“Thank you very much!” (Yuki)
“You really are a difficult student.” (Himiyama)
The door opened with a bang. It was Sanjoji-sensei who walked in.
“Misaki-san, it’s been a while. –What are you guys doing?!” (Sanjoji)
“It’s a secret private lesson. Ghehehehehehe.” (Yuki)
“T-This is unacceptable!” (Sanjoji)
After this, Sanjoji-sensei lectured me at length, but it seems that Himiyama-san and Sanjoji-sensei are now close friends. She told me that when she heard that Himiyama-san was going to resume her career as a tutor, she came to support her.
When I think about it, I’ve caused tremendous hardship not only to Himiyama-san, but also to Sanjoji-sensei. And that’s not all. I’ve always been a nuisance to the people around me.
–It was as if my existence was bringing misfortune.
TL: With this done there are no more new chapters. I will upload when there is a chapter released. Thanks for reading till now.
32 comments »
ExfernalSeptember 13, 2021 at 12:43 am
“For me, it was just a normal thing, but for Himiyama-san, it was not.”
Somehow reminds me of this meme:
some mobSeptember 13, 2021 at 12:54 am
…………………….Welp, it’s over folks………*Looney-toons ending music*…..
Himiyama-san decide to laid bare everything, nothing physically of course(or at the very least it wasn’t mentioned), with Yukito. It appears that Yukito thinks is his fault, which it isn’t; the incident is the fault of the damn student who hide Himiyama-san underwear in Yukito’s desk and Himiyama and Sanjoji absolute mismanagement of the situation.
For some reason Yukito thinks his existance is the result of everything but well that’s the author’s fault………..i mean, fate, well you guys understand. Though we can say that his aunt hypnosis was screwing his actions and choices(?) in highschool….i guess?…if one think carefully sometimes Yukito acts against his own intentions…..and then wonders why the situation end up like that.
I wonder if there is something a bit wrong with me wanting for Yukito to snap and raise the rating of this story(to R-18) with the women around himself(which are not really against it but accepting will be an annoyance for Yukito for life) to stop them acting so crazy around him.
Well we have catch up with the author so we need to wait for it; the first time i read this novel’s description in NU i was having some expectations but a good deal of them are became an absolute letdown so i really want a satisfactory ending or well a good one, and i also hope Souma-senpai will be the one to help him when she finds out how broken he is(she is the choosen one).
HitSeptember 13, 2021 at 1:20 am
Pretty sure it wasn’t the underwear, or any article of clothing, that was stolen, iirc it was something like a lipstick
ExfernalSeptember 13, 2021 at 2:39 pm
A compact mirror?
sense-sanSeptember 13, 2021 at 4:23 am
I dont think its underwear but rather some kind of makeup accessory. Otherwise I totally agree.
cyclone499September 16, 2021 at 5:25 am
bro, I ship him with souma-senpai too
sveemusicSeptember 17, 2021 at 11:30 am
I don’t think soo seeing that the author has made every women he met with crazy most likely just like the students council president in last chapter most likely souma senpai had done something too in past to him too and met him and that’s why maybe she have some kinda feeling like he is easy to talk to just like there first encounter during her confessions when she met him but the truth may have been that sheight have met him in past but only have vague memory or something ,you understand my hypothesis right?
RubenReyesSeptember 13, 2021 at 1:21 am
Wait… did i miss something from last chapter to this one?
senseibaoSeptember 13, 2021 at 2:50 am
Wait when was this chapter released in JP?
sense-sanSeptember 13, 2021 at 4:26 am
Sometime around 2 months ago.
MAc LovinSeptember 13, 2021 at 3:31 am
Thanks for the chapter, lets hope the author goes back to writing more chapters sooner rather than later, if it isn’t bad for him or her, I dunno which
Raihan Tri WahyudiSeptember 13, 2021 at 8:19 am
Thanks for the chapter and translation.
eureSeptember 13, 2021 at 12:49 pm
Thank you for the translation.
Happy to read this
RyusvielSeptember 13, 2021 at 7:12 pm
Believe me, Yukito. You’re not going overboard back then. It’s just a series of misfortune. And yes, your existence was bringing misfortune, but the one who suffered from it the most was you. So it’s not your fault.
sveemusicSeptember 17, 2021 at 11:34 am
Bro it’s not him who is misfortune it’s his parents and other who are misfortune for him who couldn’t educate and have time for him properly and there mistakes which made him the current him
RyusvielSeptember 20, 2021 at 7:16 am
Yes but his actions, or rather his retaliations make others misfortune too. Like his family, Hiragi, the basketball manager, especially Himeyama-sensei who’s wasting so many years because of trauma. Again, like I said, it’s not his fault. But he could’ve done better. And that’s what he’s currently doing.
sveemusicSeptember 20, 2021 at 8:04 am
Well actually I think the hypnosis is most likely the reason for his misfortune you know. With the hypnosis forcing him to survive and live made him fight against the thought of dieing and the thought which came while wanting to die and some of those thoughts were so frequent that he didn’t notice that they are actually affecting hin like hin thinking that he could have done better intead having some expectations from someone and should stop doing everything by himself. It’s kinda became his habit trying to fight against his desiire and which may have affected hin to fight against his emotions which came when he wanted to die and now it’s affect for everytime mostly so he cannot properly have emotions. It’s complicated but I got the gist of it as hypnosis having made him fight back and survive had affected him in many wrong way too.
Strawberry MilkshakeSeptember 28, 2021 at 9:31 pm
Finally I’ve caught up.
gaudasamantaOctober 4, 2021 at 12:21 am
Did this get dropped?
KenniRogersOctober 11, 2021 at 5:53 pm
Last chapter is making me nervous. We love Goddess senpai because she is the only one who has seemingly not hurt him yet, but I’m afraid the author might pull some weird past out of his a*s to connect Goddess senpai and Yukito. Please, I really hope Goddess senpai gets to keep her status as the only one not constantly shackled by guild towards him.
Patrick Joe YapNovember 5, 2021 at 4:15 am
i hope it comes back soon
I Eat Life For Breakfast! (@OarangeKnight)November 7, 2021 at 12:33 am
Damn. I need more chapters lmao. I’m hooked.
Muhammad Saldi SNovember 14, 2021 at 3:20 am
Finally catch up, and its been 5 months Hiatus already.. dropped?
AManNovember 23, 2021 at 1:26 am
Well, wait for new chapters. Thanks for the translation so far Soapf-san
kamiarenDecember 15, 2021 at 8:43 pm
Thank you very much for the chapters. That was a good read.
nika77722January 5, 2022 at 2:25 am
Finally caught up but need more. Anyway thanks for the chapter. Hope he finally learns to get rid of these useless women from his life, not caring about someone or indirectly hurting them is not your fault. In my experience people I have considered a nusiance or bothersome have been removed from my life. Heck I don’t even greet them if we meet by chance and it doesn’t affect me. Yukito seems to think that everything is his fault but man you were in junior school, a fricking 10-11 year old kid or less and they expect him to do better or solve the problems? The fact that he didn’t become a shut-it is already a miracle, if we don’t include hypnosis to keep him alive. Hopefully he meets someone who he will seriously treasure and leave everyone else behind.
Akiba SaboJanuary 12, 2022 at 5:32 am
I have read the comments and it seems that the vast majority do not understand this story
There are 3 yukis in this story
the original before the incident at age 6
the current one that is a mixture of both
But neither is someone normal
The protagonist always had bad luck
(all we know is just the tip of the iceberg)
Yuki never got affection from his mother and his world was his sister and that is why the incident is so important. Then his world was the childhood friend. And the entire time hiragi was with yuki.
Yuki went through many betrayals and bullying
(Doesn’t it seem strange to you that Yuki has experience in fights, that he has so many memories of the hospital and forgets people about his past)
Yuki has suicidal tendencies and as much as hypnosis protected him.
I still think that the worst women are the mother and the aunt.
The mother (because even a hanster who eats her young is a better mother) and the aunt (she never said anything to anyone and felt special for being the only woman who had the absolute confidence of Yuki and never communicated anything to her sister or anyone specialist she have taken all the precautions and follow up on Yuki)
As yukika said, all women are at 0% in their relationship (since before they were in negative numbers) but no one listens to yuki, they only make her movements and want to be close to yuki by force.
The only one who is moderately decent is the goddess sempai but thanks to the cousin goddess lawyer (it’s worrisome) and the sister of hiragi (not to mention, it seems that the mother hurt yuki)
Finally, Yuki is not someone normal (a little more he is like an alien) so we cannot measure him under our standards,
hikkihachiJanuary 31, 2022 at 3:47 am
For ppl asking, the author said this got a LN adaptation.
the author is prolly one of the most mysterious i have read and he doesnt interact much with his readers in narou.
So we dont kno much when he’s coming back, but considering this got a LN adaptation we can guess hes very busy now, considering this is what happened to other authors that get their works adapted.
he can also abandon the WN altogether if he had a good deal, which sometimes happens. we dont know, so we can only wait.
Fang20031February 14, 2022 at 11:34 pm
Can I get the author’s twitter?
Akiba SaboMarch 4, 2022 at 9:22 pm
!!!!!!!!!new chapter in raws!!!!!!!!!
yuthe959159March 4, 2022 at 10:03 pm
New chapter updates on syosetu, and yeah book version released date
HealerDecember 9, 2022 at 7:38 pm
take it easy yukito enjoy life while life is not enjoy
Idk wtf im write rn but it sound cool