Chapter 6: As for Glasses Saito
TL: This chapter is Miyu’s PoV
Miyu wanted to be pampered by everyone.
I hated herself for being so plain in junior high school. I hated my glasses.
“—You used to be prettier in the past, Saito-san…… “
With those words, I couldn’t move from the classroom.
A shock ran through my body.
I’m much prettier than I used to be…….
I stand there alone, staring at the entrance to the classroom.
An unfamiliar feeling swirls around me. I feel sick.
I didn’t want to get on the wrong side of you either,…….
……I was happy to be in the same class as you in high school. Makoto-kun usually has a gloomy face, but the smile he sometimes shows is very nice.
I was right about that.
An astute girl had already confessed her feelings for the high-spec boy, Makoto-kun.
……I felt …… disgusted deep in my chest. Makoto-kun, even though …… I was the first to become friends with him.
Where the hell did I go wrong?
In junior high school, I was happy to spend time with Makoto-kun in the library.
Maybe he was dragging out the rumors from elementary school, but Makoto-kun didn’t have any friends.
He looked simple, but he had a very beautiful face.
When he talked, he was cheerful and very funny.
Going to the library was something I looked forward to every day.
At the time, I had dorky glasses, a long skirt, and weird pigtails.
I was called ugly behind my back, but Makoto-kun was very kind to me.
It happened suddenly. Just as I thought the earthquake had stopped, Makoto-kun came at me.
I was in a state of panic as he leaned over me as if he was going to fall on top of me. I was so scared at that time ……, no matter how good a friend we were, in the presence of so many students …….
After a while, Makoto-kun got up slowly.
I was in a daze.
His complexion was ashen and blood was flowing from his head. The next thing I knew, the students around me were attacking him.
And …… everyone was worried about me.
“‘Are you okay? Saito-san.”
“Let’s go to the infirmary.”
“Are you hurt? Do you want some water? Did he touch you in any weird way?”
As a shy person, I couldn’t reply well.
“Eh, uh, yeah …. I’m okay … well, Makoto-kun is injured–oh, my glasses, glasses …”
The temperature of the students dropped.
I can tell even without my glasses. I was afraid of that atmosphere.
“You can’t just leave that guy alone. …… glasses …… Huh? Are you really Saito?”
“That’s right. He can’t just attack you out of the blue.”
“I’ll go to the infirmary with you.”
“Heh~, you’re even cuter without your glasses.”
All the students were worried about me.
I was like a character in a novel. They all pampered me and took good care of me.
It was very new to me and made me happy.
That’s why I failed to ask about the meaning of Makoto-kun’s actions. …… In my head, I understand that the gentle Makoto-kun would never attack me. But ……
Makoto-kun refutes the students’ accusations with no effort, but there is no light in his eyes.
There is a bad rumor about him. When he was in elementary school, he assaulted a girl and injured her. …… There are many more. I never believed those rumors, but–
I know because I am plain. If I take Makoto’s side here and now,……
I would be a woman who can’t read the air and I would be attacked too.
–Don’t worry, I’m sure there will be a chance to talk to Makoto-kun later.
That’s why I was carried away by my surroundings.
In the end, I never had a chance to talk to him until I graduated.……
After that incident, I was reborn and enjoyed my school life.
The incident that Makoto-kun attacked me faded into the corner of my mind.
I also made female friends who were in the top caste in my class. I learned to wear makeup and dress up.
Everyone told me I was cute. Hearing those words lifted my spirits. I even got my first confession, which I turned down because I wasn’t as cool as Makoto-kun.
Everyone pampered me.
I didn’t want to go back to being the plain girl in the library.
After the graduation ceremony, a plain girl came to talk to me. She was just like the old me.
‘Saito-san, I can tell you now that ……. At that time …… Makoto-kun was injured defending you and ……, no, I’m sorry. At that time, I was afraid of the air around me, so I couldn’t say anything……”
She just said it and ran off.
At first I couldn’t understand what she was talking about.
Gradually, it penetrated into my mind.
I could understand it in my head, but …… it’s too late now ……. My days with Makoto-kun……
At that time, Makoto-kun passed in front of me.
He didn’t look at me at all. His gaze was only forward.
When I saw him, all my memories of the library came flooding back.
It was a calm, gentle space that was very …… fun and made my heart pound …….
“Heey, Miyu! Let’s hurry up and go to the launch!”
A friend from the girl’s group was calling me from afar.
I never hate them. …… But there’s something different about …… that time. I’m not sure if it’s because I’ve never had a good time. My female friends were all selfish.
On the surface, they are friendly with each other, but when they are not with their friends, they talk behind their backs.
It was a very troublesome world I had entered.
“Why …… did …… Miyu give …… Makoto-kun–“
Regret came rushing in. Why didn’t I talk to you right away,……, you idiot? I …….
I’m not going to try to find out the truth, I’m going to let it wash over me – and enjoy it.
He was protecting me.
I could see Makoto’s face in my mind, bleeding from his head.
At that moment, I understood. This throbbing in my chest was …… my first love.
I followed him with my eyes.
He was about to leave the school alone. Where are your parents? What about your sister? Why are you alone?
“-Ma-Makoto -kun!! Wait!!”
Makoto-kun must have heard my voice. But he didn’t turn around.
“Miyu, you’re late! Hurry up!”
The only thing I can hear is the frustrated voice of my friend.
–Yes, we go to the same high school, so there is a chance to apologize, right? …… Don’t worry, I won’t make a mistake next time.
“I’m sorry, I’ll be there in a minute!!
I headed over to my group of friends.
“I was super wrong from the beginning ……, Miyu’s super stupid …….”
When I was in the same class as Makoto-kun, he wouldn’t even look at me.
I wanted him to see me as a beautiful girl.
After the incident with me, I heard all sorts of bad rumors, but I didn’t believe them.
I mustered up the courage to talk to him, and he smiled at me.
I was so excited by that.
I thought it was strange that he used honorifics.
When I got carried away and spoke in a rambling manner – his smile seemed to get stronger.
I was impatient to see if I had offended him in any way.
I wanted to apologize, but I was too impatient to say anything else.
I couldn’t stop talking. I didn’t want him to hate me.
I wanted to be friends with him.
Suddenly, I realized that Makoto-kun was smiling, but he wasn’t smiling.
I couldn’t feel the gentle air. I couldn’t feel any emotion. He was not looking at me at all.
When we talked earlier, I was strongly convinced.
–I was convinced that he had gone —-crazy because of me.
I wanted to apologize. I wanted to tell him that I believed in him.
“Of course it’s Miyu’s fault I’m really stupid. ……”
The entrance to the classroom I was staring at was empty.
What if I had listened to Makoto right then and there?
What if I hadn’t been so distraught?
What if I had believed you?
What if I hadn’t distanced myself from you?
What if I had– what if I had confessed properly?
“Higu … I know …, Higu … I was wrong … I was scared and could only tell a joke …”
You really are an idiot. I even prepared my glasses because I thought it would make Makoto-kun happy …….
The regret, the emotions, they come in waves.
I can’t stop what’s coming up. I can’t stop crying.
” Makoto-kun ……. I’m sorry ……, I’m sorry ……, I’m really sorry.”
I repeat the words like a broken machine.
I can’t go back to a broken relationship.
I can’t erase a broken past.
Makoto, your scars will never go away.
The days will never be the same again.
I’m sure that Makoto-kun will never forgive me.
I even apologized at the wrong time…….
–If I try to go back to the same relationship now, it will be too late. …..
I realized that for the first time while I was crying–
18 comments »
libertarianciceroAugust 27, 2021 at 12:16 am
She has a horrible sense of self-awareness. It took her way too long to figure this out. Granted, her character is young, but her self-awareness should be higher than it is at this point.
mismatchmakingAugust 27, 2021 at 12:21 am
Deserved. She would’ve stuck with him if he was being talked down on if she really liked him but she prioritised herself. Not a wrong move but definitely not a right one. Thanks for the chapter~
some mobAugust 27, 2021 at 12:25 am
………………….You want to be pampered…….well, there you have it………………………………………….
But well, at the very least she realize how much of an idiot she is and had been.
Still, if the MC will think of wanting to return with her……..well, that’s another issue(though i think he won’t ever again………nice MC!!!!!!). Now, if she can tell everyone the truth of that day then there is still some sort of hope……………ok, i’m sorry, i’m lying, there is no hope for her to reunite with the MC again but at least his burden will be eased up a bit…………but if she is even a bit remorseful then she will do it.
TAugust 27, 2021 at 2:19 am
I like how we get a full view of the character so they’re more than ha ha I am very dumb see I hurt you but it was in fact actually your fault
The Most Heroic BicyclistAugust 27, 2021 at 6:27 am
Yeah, good plan. Prioritize the “friends” that you know talk behind each other’s backs and by logical extension YOUR back instead of apologizing to the guy you supposedly love. There’s always next time right?
There’s going to have to be a major redemption arc before this girl approaches anything close to likeable.
SoraAugust 27, 2021 at 12:15 pm
You realized it huh. Then stay the f*ck away from him now. Let him move on instead of you making moves for self-satisfaction
AmplifitySeptember 21, 2021 at 4:02 pm
wonder if theres gonna be an fc he didn’t have a past with….
EkunOctober 13, 2021 at 8:37 am
Ah comeon u see he bleeding and u just . . . . . . ah girl
pinino akoOctober 15, 2021 at 3:30 pm
you want to be pampered huh? come here i will pampered your head with f*****g hammer
estresadoporunamontaadelibrosOctober 29, 2021 at 5:19 am
Por lo menos se dio cuenta.
Pero como dijo el el pasado no se puede borrar
estresadoporunamontaadelibrosOctober 29, 2021 at 5:20 am
Gracias por los capítulos
DanielNovember 2, 2021 at 1:24 am
You said it… it’s TOO LATE.
Why now you want to be on the good side instead of the popular side?
Why now you realize that you just sacrificed your love for bad popularity?
KaitoNovember 7, 2021 at 3:16 am
I don’t know how many times I said “f**k off” while reading this chapter, this girl is disgusting
NoNameNovember 26, 2021 at 7:14 pm
Yup, seems you’ve realized it eh?
Well well, f**k off is the way girl.
He didn’t need you anymore, stop putting more burden on him anymore bruh.
Can a man just have his quiet peace alone?
Sky BreakerDecember 23, 2021 at 6:27 pm
She’s so selfish and self centered. She let the lie played out for the sake of her own personal gain. She even forgot about it until another person pointed out to her. Now, she’s feeling guilty and wants to reconcile with Makoto just so she can clear her guilty conscious. But no amount of payment can ever undo a sin. You can’t change the past by altering the present. You can only make sure that your present actions don’t commit future sins. But right now, that is not what she’s trying to do. Everything she’s doing is for her own selfish gain. If she is truly remorseful, she’d be doing what Makoto want instead of what she want. Fact is, she’s not really trying to make amends. She just don’t want to be the bad guy.
kofikoliteDecember 31, 2021 at 2:28 am
I can already smell all the girls being sincerely sorry and having some kind of reason but damn I personally don’t care I’m happy the mc is not trying to fix it.. Can’t wait for him to be happy
Rio HatsuneFebruary 2, 2022 at 8:04 am
That’s why you deserve it b***h!
You’re still a b***h for me no matter what happens!
RKADE 14May 24, 2023 at 3:32 pm
Being able to turn around and know you’re not going to get stabbed in the back in a circle of enemies is a less stressful than a constant unknown of when those neutral people’s will all turn into enemies.