Chapter 29: Because I am me.
[I thought—– you were my best friend.]
I can’t get those words out of my head.
What best friend? I’ve never thought of her that way.
To begin with, I never had any real friends.
I have always been alone. I should have been alone.
[Stop playing the victim”]
You’re wrong. I’m not doing that. There is no such thing.
In fact, I was a victim. It’s not my fault.
People around me make me feel alone. No one really believes me!
Maika didn’t believe me this time either.
In the end, she left me.
Maika left me in the end. She didn’t understand anything, put herself on the shelf, blamed others, and then left me.
She left me alone, too.
I can’t forgive her. No, I don’t have to forgive her.
Because she is no longer my best friend.
”No….. she never was”
I immediately dismiss the thought that crosses my mind with a mutter.
I must never, ever admit it.
Otherwise, I won’t be able to be me. I will not be able to feel sorry for myself.
I turn my eyes away from the contradictions that arise within me.
And I look at myself objectively.
—-I am fine. I am more of a victim than anyone else.
And there are people who believe in me.
It’s all right. I am not alone.
Friends? Best friend? It doesn’t matter.
What matters is what I am. That’s all that matters.
So I won’t let them do whatever they want.
Don’t worry. I’ve laid the groundwork.
Those pictures will come in handy from now on.
This is different from that time. This is not bullying, it is not something to bring others down.
It is self-defense.
I told myself that and kept my peace of mind.
9 comments »
SimakJuly 5, 2022 at 12:20 am
Worst girl! Thanks for the chapter.
nika77722July 5, 2022 at 1:44 am
Thanks for the chapter. For real, just move on already
Strawberry MilkshakeJuly 5, 2022 at 1:47 am
Yea you are victim who likes to sacrifice your white knight.
'_'July 5, 2022 at 3:48 pm
Where is chapter 29?? from 28 to 30??
SoafpJuly 5, 2022 at 3:54 pm
In chapter 28 I said I skip Ch 29 because it is the same as Ch 21
RondellJuly 5, 2022 at 11:03 pm
Demn this getting wild.
NameJuly 5, 2022 at 11:11 pm
So she’s framing her white knight for bullying AGAIN in “self defense” for something that hasn’t happened yet. Honesty I’m kind of hoping this ends with MC strangling her.
Chapter 28: Small step – Soafp TranslationJuly 12, 2022 at 11:55 am
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RKADE 14July 28, 2022 at 3:57 am
You WERE a victim, the position you had was as a bystander which then moved into the source of someone else’s problem.