Chapter 16: I will never forget those tears.
Translator: Soafp
Mom…no, Honoka had been coming regularly to take care of Dad since she learned of his illness.
I couldn’t refuse it.
Because Dad looked really happy.
That day, I heard the truth.
It was an event that shattered my feet.
“Toki…you are really my precious, precious son. But telling you that, expressing my love for you makes Seiji-san suffer …… Please forgive me …… for being such a stupid mother.”
“…Suffer…father?”
“…Yes. You are definitely my child. But you are not Seiji’s …… child…”
“……… Eh?”
“I’ll take it from there. The truth is…I wasn’t sure if I should tell you. Your mother you know. I couldn’t have children with her. We broke up once. And the next time I saw her, she was carrying …… you. The other guy, he ran away…”
“Seiji-san helped me when I had nowhere to go…but I…went to go back…I’m sorry…”
“….Back…?…..”
“…the one I’m with right now…”
……
Then, no way.
The scene of the affair I saw.
My real… father…? …
“Ha, haha… then my father… he is….”
“Toki. I consider you my son. Even though we are not blood related. After all, I have been with you since you were born. I have seen how cute you are and how hard you have worked.”
“You got it wrong, Dad is still my father! That’s not it, it’s not it! Dad, I…What the hell! Why did you have to do this to me? We have to get along….”
Dad must have suffered the most because of that…
“Seiji, what happened to you…”
“Get out! You are not my mother!”
“Toki… Mom… Honoka… loved you from the bottom of her heart. Even if… you don’t have a heart for her. So… if you have to hate me… do it to me.”
Dad squeezed out and showed me his feelings for Mom for the first time. I can’t believe he told me that. I can’t…
How much pain is God making you go through?
“I don’t hate Dad for saying such a thing…”
“Seiji-san… is there something…?”
“Yeah. The lungs. I’ve only had it for a few years. That’s why I called you here. I didn’t want to leave Toki alone. Haha. Yes, I’m worried about Toki.”
“It can’t be…”
Then there was a short period of silence.
During that time, I was convinced that I was right.
There was nothing to tell about the origin of my trauma. My family back then, my family, was a helpless fake.
So there was no trauma whatsoever.
And my father was the only one who was helplessly awful.
That’s all there was.
Much more than I did. He must have suffered for many years. And yet, he still gave me love without reservation.
When I had a cold, when I sprained my leg, when I took the entrance exam, when Haruka…betrayed me.
When I think back, my father always hugged me. He encouraged me.
More than my own mother. More than my real father.
Yeah, right.
No matter what anyone says, this is love.
And I’m giving it back to him.
A greater love.
Making that declaration.
“…dad. You’re the only family I have left… and you don’t have to worry about me anymore. Surely, I’m glad it’s right now. ……Thank you, Honoka, for everything… until now. I am Asaba. I’m Toki Asaba. I’m his only son, and no matter what happens from here on out, I’ll always be his only son.”
When I told her this, Honoka-san, looked a little sad.
My blood family, my immediate family, is with Honoka and on the other side.
But I don’t need that.
I turn my eyes away from that fact, from reality, and lie.
The love that I am aware of in my heart is so strong that I can’t help it.
Following this love, I will lie for the rest of my life.
This lie is my realness.
“Toki….Hahaha, I see ha, haha. When you say it like that, it kind of…tickles me.”
As he said this, a single beautiful tear flowed from my father’s embarrassed eyes.
I will always remember those tears.
Ptolemy
February 1, 2023 at 12:28 amThanks for the chapter.
Good Lord, Toki…
Stoltz Enjoyer
February 1, 2023 at 3:02 amGet on your feet, Son.. this is life..
God helps those who help themselves..
Anyway, thanks for the chapter..
depressedBitch_55
February 1, 2023 at 12:16 pmtoki did a W move f**k his hoe of a mom
Noctis
February 4, 2023 at 4:08 amGood lord Toki, indeed. Godspeed sonny, you need it all after everything you went through, hope Seiji finds a better place in his next life, without Honoka and Haruka but still with Toki around.
Thanks for the chapter.
Rapapap
February 15, 2023 at 2:12 amSo, they couldn’t have a child and then broke up. She later got pregnant by another guy, but he ditched her and with nowhere to go she went back to Seiji, and the other guy came back, she f****d him and ran off with him? Did I get that right? Because if so, then even death wouldn’t be punishment enough for such a person.
MisterM
July 18, 2023 at 3:43 amThis hits hard.
Sh*tty life like this happens in real world. Some were even worse. Thanks for the chapter!
theguywhoinsultedyourlogic
November 20, 2023 at 4:57 amthe f**k is wrong his mom… got pump and look for help to raise her kid….?.. then still cheat?…. the best definition of a w***e…