That day I went home with Shiraki, I was in my room grinning.
No, well? It had been my first time with a girlfriend, right?
Isn’t it okay to be a little bit excited?
At that time
There’s a knock at my door.
Is it my mother?
Thinking so, I open the door.
“May I have a word?”
There she was, my sister.
Mifuyu Shinzaki, my biological older sister, is a beautiful woman that even I, her younger brother, would consider a beauty.
She is a senior in high school and goes to the same school as me.
She looked a little uncomfortable.
“Have you been seeing anyone lately?”
I wondered how she knew.
“N-no? Why would you ask me that?”
“Tell me the truth.”
I felt a sense of intimidation from my sister that I don’t usually feel.
Among male and female siblings, I think my sister and I are pretty close.
We’ve never been in a bad mood, and neither of us has ever done anything that would make us that way.
But I had a feeling that this question could be very serious depending on the answer.
“S-She confessed her feelings to me.”
I decided to be honest.
Why did she ask me so many questions?
“I-Isn’t that enough?
She kept asking me the same question over and over again.
I gave up and told her.
“A classmate of mine named Shiraki.”
That was a mistake.
“Ha? Didn’t you go out with Himari?”
Immediately, my sister’s face became stern.
“Himari? What has Himari do with this?”
I wonder why Himari’s name came up.
“Haa, I’m so tired of you.”
She said that with a sigh.
There was a sound of something cracking.
But I shook my head, thinking it was just my imagination, and asked her.
She let out another sigh.
“I’m really stunned that you can’t even understand that.”
With that, she walked away from in front of my room.
What was it, that feeling of something simmering?
I had never experienced such a feeling before.
It must have been a feeling of anxiety that things might turn sour because I had been getting along so well with others.
That must be it.
Otherwise, I would not have felt depressed about her.
The next morning, I washed my face at the washbasin and sat down at the table to have breakfast, just as my sister came down from the second floor.
My house is a two-story building, and my sister and I have our own rooms upstairs.
“Good morning, sis.”
I said cheerfully.
But she didn’t reply.
…..What is her problem?
I finished breakfast and left the house before my sister.
It was uncomfortable for me to stay at home.
Without taking any detours, I walked the shortest distance to school.
When I arrived at the school, I found that for some reason everyone was glancing at me.
They may have been trying not to notice me, but I am very sensitive to people’s movements.
There was no way I could have missed it.
I wondered if there was something wrong with me.
“Shinzaki-kun, will you have lunch with me again today?”
I was paying attention to my surroundings when Shiraki called out to me.
As soon as Shiraki and I started talking, everyone started whispering.
…..If you have something to say, say it.
No, something similar to the feelings I had for my sister is rising up in me.
I forcefully suppress it.
“Then, I’ll see you on the rooftop.”
After saying that, Shiraki went back to her seat.
I feel uncomfortable…
After fourth period, I felt uncomfortable in the classroom and headed for the rooftop to escape.
Shiraki was already there waiting for me.
I felt my heart lighten up.
Maybe I love Shiraki more than I thought.
“Sorry to keep you waiting.”
“No, I haven’t been waiting much at all.”
Shiraki smiled at me.
Aah, she’s really cute.
After school, as I was getting ready to leave, some of my classmates, a group of three girls to be exact, came over to talk to me.
” Hey, do you have a minute?”
I don’t have plans to go home with Shiraki-san today.
“I do, but… what do you want?”
“Well, come here for a minute.”
“Yeah, just a minute.”
One of the three turned her back to me and started walking away.
All I could do was to follow her back.
When I got there, I found myself in the back of the school building.
This is where Shiraki confessed her feelings to me.
I was thinking about that as I walked.
When I thought that the group of three had stopped, I saw Himari there.
Himari was silent.
Himari opened her mouth.
“What is it?”
“B-break up with Shiraki.”
There was a sound as if something was broken.
“W-Why are you saying that?”
When I said that, one of the three girls who had remained silent until a moment ago replied
“Haa? You really don’t get it, do you?”
She was saying the same thing as my sister.
Is this my fault?
“I-I’m sorry, but I really don’t get it.”
The trio turns their eyes at me, as if to say, ” Stupid”.
So what is going on?
“Do you really not understand?”
Himari looked down.
“That’s enough. Let’s go, Himari”
Himari was pulled back by the 3 girls and went home.
What’s really going on?
Then a few days passed.
Since that day, when I talked to her, but she ignored me.
Did I do something?
I feel like she is irritated, which is out of character.
“Shinzaki-kun, can you come to the back of the school building today?”
It was Shiraki who asked me that.
It has been a week since I started going out with Shiraki.
“Yes, it’s okay, but what’s wrong?”
“That’s a secret.”
I was so happy to hear Shiraki say that, but her face seemed to be somewhat gloomy.
After school, I came to the back of the school building as Shiraki told me.
Shiraki was already there, and when she saw me, she straightened her posture.
“There’s something I need to tell you, Shinzaki-kun,”
“What is it?”
To be honest, I love Shiraki.
Even though my relationship with everyone has been a little bad lately, I don’t mind because of Shiraki’s presence.
That’s how important Shiraki has become to me.
“The truth is”
I waited for her to continue.
“It was all a lie.”
Two figures came out from behind Shiraki.
They were Kinoshita and Kawashima, with whom Shiraki was always talking.
They were both grinning together.
Paki-paki-paki! (cracking sound)
“Eh, ha? A lie.”
“Yes, a false confession.”
What is this person talking about?
“W-Why would you do that?”
“I lied to you because I thought it’d be fun.”
Crack crack, crack crack, crack.
I heard something completely broken.
“Well, don’t give me that look, it was just a joke.”
A joke, huh?
“Hey, say something.”
“Aah, shut up will you”
Shiraki looks puzzled.
I often look at people.
It’s because I wanted to have a good relationship with them.
But I don’t feel the need to do that at all anymore.
I just do what makes me happy.
What about the opposite?
I know what I don’t like to have done to me, and it goes hand in hand.
I reached into my pocket and operated my phone.
“Did you lie to me because you think it’s funny?”
“T-that’s right. Is is wrong?”
Beyond disgust, I almost let out a derisive laugh.
“You can’t be serious, huh?”
I know that even I have changed my tone of voice.
But for some reason, I don’t feel any different.
It was as if this me was the real me.
“Shiraki, Kinoshita, and Kawashima, what you are doing is trampling on people’s feelings, don’t you know that?”
I told the three of them.
I told them that, making sure to mention their names.
“It doesn’t matter, if it’s fun. “
As long as it’s fun, it doesn’t matter what you do huh.
“Well, I’m glad to know you guys are scum.”
I left the place after saying that.
At that time, I didn’t notice that Shiraki’s eyes were a little wet.
The next day I arrived at school a little early.
Strangely enough, I was not depressed at all, even though Shiraki had dumped me yesterday.
But I was a little pissed off.
With a wry smile on my face, I headed for a certain place.
After walking for a few minutes, I arrived at my destination.
The broadcast room.
I enter the place marked “Broadcast Room.”
About three minutes before the bell rings, I made my move.
I pressed the switch on the school’s public address system and played the audio I had recorded on my phone yesterday.
It was played loudly throughout the school.
After I finished playing everything, I went back to my classroom.
It was a terrible scene.
“Shiraki-san, she is terrible, isn’t she?”
“Seriously, she’s a scumbag.”
“I never thought she was that kind of person.”
“I was aiming for her for a while, but this is too much.”
Each one of them is saying words as he or she thinks.
In the end, people break up relationships easily.
It means that what I was doing until now was pointless.
Well, there is no point in noticing such things now.
Shiraki and her friends are sobbing uncomfortably.
What a good feeling.
I felt like my rough heart was healed a little.
Ah, that was refreshing.
I smiled wickedly again.
The boy doesn’t know that Himari is looking at him with a sad face at that moment.