Chapter 8: Lose and you’ll understand.
Translated and Edited by: luccayn.
Common Honorifics:
-san: A polite suffix, but not excessively formal.
-kun: A common suffix among friends and younger people.
-chan: A common suffix among people you’re close with, mostly used for feminine nicknames and girls, since it’s cutesy and childlike.
-senpai: A common suffix and noun used to address or refer to one’s older or more senior colleagues in a school, workplace, dojo, or sports club.
“So, I crushed the last practice game I played. It was amazing, and I did great!”
“Oh really…”
I’m eating lunch in the cafeteria today while I watch Hinata and Kuraki, who are sitting a little ways apart from me. Sitting across is my boyfriend, who’s feeling great and keeps bragging about how well he did on his club today.
—It’s annoying as hell.
This guy over here invited me to eat with him in the classroom, and even though I refused, he still followed me to the cafeteria without considering my circumstances. Doesn’t he have a single caring bone in him?
I had to keep an eye on Hinata just in case Kuraki did anything wrong, but this guy kept yapping and yapping without reading the room. To say the least, he’s a distraction.
“Listen, could you be quiet when you’re eating?”
“Eh, Ah… Gotcha.” Though he looked dissatisfied after I shot down his incessant bragging, he still shut up and started eating his food.
Look, if you aren’t happy, just go somewhere else and talk to anyone! Ugh, what a hassle! If you can’t adjust to me, you’re but a hindrance. If it were Hinata, he’d think about my feelings and act accordingly…
Come to think of it, this guy’s always been like that. He just wants me to listen to him yelp about his baseball games, and he’s always smug about it. Whenever I’d try and talk to him, he’d never show interest in anything other than his sports and did not try to expand the conversation much.
He’s a far cry from Hinata. He’d adapt to what I had to say, and he always listened to me, even if he didn’t know squat about what I was saying. Whenever I’d want to concentrate, he’d sense it and stay silent. Actually, he would even research topics that seemed interesting to me!
He was so very different from the man across who always, and only talks about things that interest him. As I thought that, I notice him eating lunch with a sullen look on his face as he shot occasional glances at me. It’s as if he wanted me to start a conversation.
In the end, I continued to watch Hinata and that girl without saying a word, then left the cafeteria at the same time those two did.
After school, my boyfriend came to my classroom just as the last chime rang. A group of excited classmates walked up to him and invited us to go out for some rare sweets somewhere. Meanwhile, Hinata left the classroom with Kuraki.
I was surrounded by people even though I tried to chase after the two, but I was unable to and ended up going to that café with my boyfriend and the others.
They’re eating my time, what a nuisance…
“Hey, y’know… Why don’t you come over to my place tomorrow, Saturday, on Christmas Eve? I know I’m late in asking you because we haven’t been talking properly lately…” And he started yapping again, interrupting my thoughts as I looked out the window wondering what Hinata was up to.
“Eh? Christmas Eve?”
“Yeah, it’s our first one together, so I wanna spend the whole day together.”
You’ve gotta be kidding me. I spend my Christmas with Hinata every year, so if I told him I was going to spend it in another guy’s house, he’d be too shy to come along.
“No, I can’t. Hinata wouldn’t be able to come along with me.”
“Hinata this, Hinata that. Your childhood friend has nothing to do with it.”
“Why? He absolutely does, though. I’m spending my Christmas with him.”
“What? What are you talking about? Actually, I’ve been meaning to say this for a while, but don’t you think it’s weird you keep talking about him when he’s just a friend and I’m your boyfriend?”
“…Don’t say he’s ‘just’ a friend. We’ve been glued at the hip since birth, so we’re not your usual childhood friends. We’re two in one, and we’re meant to be together. We always will.”
“I’m your boyfriend! And yet all you talk about is this friend! Who’s more important, me, or him?!”
Something clicked in me when he said that.
My one and only… That’s what Hinata is to me.
That’s right. He’s my childhood friend. We’ve been together from before we could even think, and we’ll always stay like that. I thought it was fine for us to remain as we were, just friends, but in order for us to stay together here on, we need to change our relationship. He needs to be my boyfriend, then my husband.
My previous attachment to the title of “childhood friend” was getting in the way between me and him. That’s what I finally managed to notice.
And for that sake… I’ll make him my boyfriend.
As I finally put my head in place and decided, the man right across me became a nuisance. He was in the way.
“Of course it’s Hinata, what sorta question is that?”
“… Eh? What?”
And he was puzzled as if my response was a sudden punch to the face. What is he so surprised about, though? Did he think for a second I’d say he’s more important to me than Hinata?
Ah, I see. It was a mistake to be dating this guy in the first place. I got carried away because I’m a bit popular and started dating him. Because of that, I had no time to spend with the one who mattered, and in my downtime, Kuraki started to butt her head where she doesn’t belong.
This isn’t good… I made Hinata feel lonely too.
“What are you talking about?! You’re dating me! Do you understand that?”
“So what? If you don’t like it, why don’t we just break up?”
“Huh?! A, are you sure? It’ll be too late if you regret it later!”
“I don’t mind. See ya.”
“Ah, wait!”
I left the café without my bewildered ex. I should have done this from the very beginning… I’d have removed the reason for Hinata’s hesitation.
Now he has no reason to hold himself back anymore. I’ll call him as soon as I get home, or I could just see him in person! Then we can make plans for our Christmas, together.
I had been feeling so frustrated for the past few days, but now my mind was clear as the bluest sky.
T/N: She’s crazy and delusional, wow. I feel bad for Taniguchi, the guy started dating only for her to, out of nowhere, start to ignore him for her “friend.”
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footzy SMA
September 21, 2022 at 3:10 am💀💀💀
some mob
September 21, 2022 at 3:38 am…………….TOO F*****G LATE GIRL, WAY TOO LATE……………….
Welp, i feel sorry for the handsome dude. Though he actually managed to “date” with the girl he liked he wasn’t aware of how messed up she was, otherwise he wouldn’t have even bothered.
Geez, i really feel bad cause when i compare this to dense MC(male) of other novels and manga and remembered they got to get a harem or the heroine(who sometimes isn’t worth the trouble) by putting the girls through situations similarly to what this girl did…….well, i’m sure those MC actually wouldn’t have dated with someone they didn’t had feelings….i mean, they are “good guys” though even denser than a 20 mm plate of pure osmium.
Now it’s time to see the gal making her stand against this idiot. Not to mention the handsome dude won’t stay quiet after being treated like that….Yep, she is doubly screwed.
ynlucca
September 21, 2022 at 4:15 amYup, she gets what she deserves
Omnefarious
September 21, 2022 at 3:42 amBruh, this chick is a full-blown narcissist. God forbid a conversation not revolve around her, and her partner not cater to her every whim. The hypocrisy and lack of self-awareness on her part when describing her boyfriend as self-absorbed is so staggering that’s also kind of hilarious. It really puts into perspective how bad our boy, Hinata had it. Dude treated her like a queen, which only likely turned her off and led her to pursue a Chad/Ikeman like Taniguchi-senpai. Then, she gets just a small taste of her own medicine and decides she needs her beta/simp back right this minute. Suzuka may think she sees things clearly, now, but I think we all suspect she is for one helluva rude awakening.
ynlucca
September 21, 2022 at 4:15 amDitto
Ricardo
September 21, 2022 at 4:21 amDude I just realized that the name of the story is about how she feels, not about how MC feels (maybe) xD
KopiC
January 19, 2024 at 4:56 amGood Lord, she went from 0 to 100 so fast in the crazy-o-meter
Gatts
September 21, 2022 at 4:27 amThank you for the chapter !
Brian Torres
September 21, 2022 at 5:10 amGirl, you heard the click to late, way to late
Thanatosh
September 21, 2022 at 5:23 amEven hinagi from “traumatized girls” Immediately Realize that she is the worst for taking advantage of another person’s feeling and didn’t immediately break up with senpai until he attacked her, at least she still got this guilt feeling.
In this one? She is just spoiled delusional narcissistic girl.
KopiC
January 19, 2024 at 4:57 amAnd the worst part, in “Traumatized girls” the senpai is a b*****d, while here, Taniguchi is a decent (Albeit sport-brained) guy.
chrestomancy
September 21, 2022 at 8:55 amShe certainly has her issues, and unfortunately Hinata has only made her more narcissistic through his devotion. Baseball guy seems a bit self absorbed, though, even if Suzuka is worse.
I am really worried about her Yandere path ahead. Life might get hard for Hinata and Kuraki from here when the forces of crazy focus on them. The only hope left is that Suzuka is still sane enough to listen, and someone takes the time to explain it all to her, which I can’t see happening. So I guess we are all here to watch the car crash my dudes?
ionlyfollowweebstuff🔞 (@ionlyfollowwee1)
September 25, 2022 at 12:18 pmHoly waffles, Hinata dodged a massive bullet.
beckytwom
November 11, 2022 at 6:02 amHmmm… I’ll be honest, I think you guys are exaggerating how “horrible” she is, if she is even horrible at all. What are they? Highschoolers? The girl also just had her first boyfriend, and has no idea how she would like it or how too approach this relationship. She does not know anything, nor can see how important her relationship is with Hinata. The fact that she realized this soon, and how she is willing to act on it makes her… not bad. I do not get the hate. SHE IS A HIGHSCHOOLER, making mistakes is what teaches them to be better people. She has done wrongs, but hating her for it is just weird to me, especially for mistakes like this.
xson1995
March 24, 2023 at 12:19 amPeople like her walk this earth, it makes it even more scary, she’s so pitiful, i realy feel bad for her, becouse she will never have healthy relationship as long as she will behave this way.
Jackcoln
May 5, 2023 at 6:13 amHolly molly…..now it comes