V3 Chapter 4 | [Hazuki] The Consequences of Running Away
I betrayed Yuuri.
I ran away from Yuuri’s cold eyes.
I ran away because I was afraid that Yuuri would reject me again.
I ran and ran and kept running so that I would not get hurt.
I think Kouki has changed the way he treats me since I broke up with Yuuri.
Now he invites me over to his house and we even go on dates.
We have become like normal lovers.
The whirlpool of intense pleasure that I used to experience when I was dating Yuuri is gone, but I still feel comfortable being with Kouki. When we finished having sex, he would always tell me that he loved me and give me a tender look, which made me feel very happy.
So, from the beginning of the second semester, when I saw Yuuri and Kanade getting along with each other, my heart would ache, but I gradually stopped going crazy with intense jealousy.
It was around the time when preparations for the festival were in full swing that I noticed something wrong with my body.
I was thinking that my periods were delayed, and then a sudden feeling of nausea came over me.
I didn’t think it was possible, so I took a pregnancy test that day and the result was positive. I always wore a rubber on dangerous days. ……
My mind went blank.
I didn’t have any friends I could talk to about this kind of thing.
In the past, I would have talked to Kanade about it, but she and I were already in a hopeless relationship.
I continued to worry alone.
Should I give birth or have an abortion…?
I didn’t have an answer.
In my heart, I wanted to have the baby.
I thought I could have a strong relationship with Kouki.
But I didn’t have the courage to tell Kouki that I was pregnant.
At school, I was busy preparing for the school festival, and I kept working to escape my pregnancy.
But those days would not last forever.
I had to face being pregnant again.
Whichever choice I made, I had to make a decision quickly.
Because while I was worrying, the child in my belly was still growing.
So I gathered up my courage and told Kouki that I was pregnant.
The result was rejection.
But I didn’t want to let go.
I didn’t want to let go of Kouki and the child I was carrying in my belly.
When Yuuri rejected me, I still had Kouki as an escape route.
But if he rejected me again, I would have no one left.
And I would have to kill the baby in my belly.
No. I can’t do that.
That’s the only thing I don’t want.
I was scared. I didn’t know what to do, so I cried myself to sleep that night.
The next day I saw Yuuri in front of me.
I was about to walk past him with my eyes downcast when he said, “Long time no see, Hazuki. Can you give me a moment of your time?” He called out to me.
I did as I was told and entered the park to find Kanade sitting on a bench waiting for us.
I was confused, but when I asked him about it, he said that they had heard about my exchange with Kouki the other day. He then asked me if I was serious about getting married and if I was ready to have children.
I was puzzled but gave my affirmation to the question.
Then, Yuuri offered me the possibility of marrying Kouki.
He was offering to help me after I had betrayed him so thoroughly and continued to run away from that fact. I knew I was ugly, but I clung to Yuuri’s words.
The way that Yuuri suggested was certainly convincing.
If I consulted with him from now on, he might be able to help me with the marriage.
But I couldn’t help wondering.
Why did Yuuri give me this advice?
So naturally, I asked him, “Why did you decide to help me after I betrayed you?” I said.
Then Yuuri uttered, “I can’t forgive you,” “but I don’t hate you.” I had done something that he should hate for the rest of his life, but he told me that he did not hate me. And when I heard his next words, I finally let a tear escape from my eye.
“I just wanted to do something to help,” he said. “Because… we are childhood friends.”
Yuuri called me a childhood friend again.
I was happy. Yuuri thought of me as a childhood friend, and even though he would never forgive me, I was so happy to hear that.
I may have become so ugly, but Yuuri will always be Yuuri.
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3 comments »
ionlyfollowweebstuff🔞 (@ionlyfollowwee1)October 2, 2022 at 9:42 pm
too short, need more, these karmic chapters are the best part of the series.
GattsOctober 3, 2022 at 4:06 am
Thank you for the chapter !
MiguelOctober 3, 2022 at 8:38 pm
I only followed the series for this volume, it was the first time I read a revenge that was so …. fillingly non-violent .
thanks for the chapter, the translation…. I hope SOAFP never ends.