Chapter 35: Those who are afraid
[Emi Pov]
Something is going on under the surface, apparently.
To be clear, I had nothing to do with it. As for “this matter,” I’m not involved in anything.
I had almost forgotten about “the incident” recently, and I even remembered “that person’s” name for the first time in a while.
I thought it was already over.
Apparently something is going on. It is especially inconvenient that there are sightings or rumors of “that person” going around.
I couldn’t let it get out.
But it seems that such a disturbing trend has already been established. Even though I have not actually experienced such a thing, I have sensed it irresistibly.
What should I do? No, I should do something about it.
That’s what I thought, so I took action. Looking back, I regret that it was so quick.
At the same time, I think it was inevitable.
Because if I didn’t, it would probably take me down the road, too, if “that person” wasn’t in a bad position.
So that decision must have been the right one.
I put my anxiety-driven mind in the corner and maintained my superiority.
Even if it makes no sense externally, I make excuses to myself for the sake of peace of mind in the present moment.
It’s okay, it’s not me who is at fault. It’s the other guy.
I wonder if I should take some kind of action in the future. I reconfirm my position once again.
… It’s okay. I’m still an outsider. I’m involved, but it’s no big deal. Because that’s what it was originally about.
I just adapted it a little bit and let it slide.
And although the past cannot be erased, fortunately “that person” has already been concluded. I won’t be judged now.
… Yes, I should still be a bystander.
Because if this continues, I’m sure my name will never come up.
I took the risk to make sure that wouldn’t happen.
It will work out. It was like that at the time, too.
”…I’ll be fine.”
I don’t know how many times I’ve muttered that, but it never reaches anyone’s ears.
Still, I was so anxious that I couldn’t help but whisper it.
Simak
July 22, 2022 at 2:18 amWhat tangled webs we weave, when we seek to deceive.
Thanks for the chapter.
jfc
July 22, 2022 at 9:01 amYou know author, if you spend the entire chapter having a character be vague to themselves it: 1. comes across as really unnatural. I don’t know about you, but my inner monologue doesn’t consist of “that person” or “that thing” too often. And 2. is a complete waste of time. We already know she’s a sneaky manipulative b***h who’s only concerned with protecting her victim status. Maybe don’t switch to her POV in the first play if you don’t want to tell us what she’s actually doing or thinking?
Essa
July 23, 2022 at 7:13 amshe down bad
Minos
October 27, 2022 at 4:30 am(Reply to jfc)
Well, her character is all about deluding herself into being the victim at all circumstances…even when she’s clearly being the perpetrator…so yeah, her inner monologue is not normal, but that’s the point. She sees herself as either an outsider or a victim, and doesn’t even want to mention MC’s name and all.