I don’t even remember how I got back to the classroom. I heard that Airi, Usui, and the others were worried about me when they saw me in deep thought, but I didn’t even remember that.
“ρ((∂v/∂t)-v×∇×v+(1/2)∇q²) = ρF-∇p+(4/3)∇μΘ+∇(v・∇μ)-v∇²μ+∇μ×(∇×v)-Θ∇μ-∇×∇×μv…… Does anyone know the answer to this question? It’s super easy!!”
I stared at my textbook, listening to my teacher’s boring lesson.
Why do I have to go through this all the time? Why can’t I get around?
Funny… life is funny.
And there is no way I can solve such a difficult problem.
Since the day I was dumped by Airi… or rather, if we trace back to the start, since the day I saw my mom at that place, I feel like all the wheels have gone out of whack.
It happened three years ago, but the negative chain of events has continued since then.
Is it my fault after all?
I may be far from a true human being, but I have never hurt anyone in my life. Even if I had something on my mind that I was dissatisfied with, I never said what was really on my mind, and I kept talking jokingly and holding back from saying what I wanted to say.
I didn’t want to go to school with Airi, but I didn’t strongly refuse. I held back the urge to curse at my mother. Even when Youka hugged me from behind, I didn’t push her away.
Even when my sister snubbed me or the student council president complained about me, I didn’t say I didn’t like it and made jokes about it to cover it up. Even when I did have something to say, I just kept it to a vague level. And yet…
“─Yu-chan, let’s go home together. Ishida-kun seems to be busy with club activities today.”
I thought that Airi was being very quick to make such a statement, but when I looked at the hands of the clock, I was astonished.
It seems that while I was lost in thought before I knew it, it was after school. I looked around and saw that everyone around me was getting ready to go home.
My eyes meet Usui’s as he walks out of the classroom, looking at me anxiously. He was waving his hand happily, so maybe he had called out to me a few times today too…
If so, I’m sorry I didn’t notice. It’s Usui, if he didn’t have a part-time job today, he would have come to see me after school too.
I’m sure he would have come after school if he didn’t have to work today.
That’s why we can have a good time talking about stupid stuff.
Well, I missed lunch and I’m starving. I’m going home as soon as I can. I’ll just forget about all the unpleasant events.
And the current situation with my childhood friend talking to me is just one of those bad events.
“What’s wrong? …Don’t tell me you’re waiting for that girl or something?”
When Airi asked him in a dissatisfied tone, Yuuji answered without changing his color.
“No, she won’t come. Or rather, I don’t think she’ll ever come.”
“Eh? Oh, yes, I see. That’s better! She was a little bit strange.”
“Yes, Airi was right. That girl is crazy. I don’t suit her.”
Although she was slightly surprised by the unusually harsh words, things went as she expected, and Airi was inwardly relieved.
She had promised to wait for Ishida to finish his club activities and return home with her, but Airi lied and said no because she had other plans.
The reason for such a lie is to interfere with Yuuji and Youka’s relationship.
For Airi, the highest priority right now is to get Yuuji and Youka to break up.
Since she and Yuuji had been going to and from school together for a while, and she had been thinking of somehow separating Youka from Yuuji, Airi’s cheeks involuntarily broke into tears when she heard that they had broken up.
“… what’s wrong?”
“No, no, nothing! I’m just glad you realized it! Well then, let’s go home! I wanted to buy something today! Let’s take a little detour!”
“I realized… well, sure.”
“Right?! … Then let’s get going!”
Airi pulls her childhood friend’s hand and tries to leave the classroom in a good mood. Yesterday, when she found out that Yuuji and Touka were dating, it had been bothering her so much that she couldn’t sleep.
As if to relieve her frustration, Airi takes Yuuji’s hand and starts to walk away…
However, the hand that holds Yuuji’s is violently shaken off by Yuuji himself.
Airi rolls her eyes at the sudden incident and turns around.
When their eyes meet, Yuuji clearly tells Airi how he feels about her.
“You’re just like him, aren’t you?”
“You’re just like him…? What? With whom?”
Airi was very upset.
Yuuji repeated his words to her.
“So it’s the same with Youka. You don’t suit me.”
“Oh, I don’t suit you?”
“Yes, you do.”
“Huh!? I don’t understand!! That’s absolutely impossible!! How many years do you think we’ve been together?! It’s absolutely impossible that Yuu-chan and I don’t get along!!”
Airi shouted hoarsely.
The whole classroom must have heard that.
But there was no one else in the room except for the three otaku-like boys who were smiling bitterly.
Yuuji was relieved to know that they would not spread the story.
Then he would only have to deal with the Airi in front of him.
“Airi, do you remember when I confessed to you?”
“You said you wouldn’t mention that again.”
…… I see.
I didn’t think you took me at my word. I did say it, but if you had thought about my feelings even a little, you wouldn’t have taken it that way.
I’ve been wanting to say it, but I’ve been holding back.
But that’s enough. I’m going to say it clearly from now on.
“I did say that. But I have no choice but to say it because it won’t come across if I don’t explain, but I said that thing as a rejection.”
“What? Rejection? Why? I don’t understand!”
“You’re the one who doesn’t get it. You rejected me and chose Ishida, right? Then, you should be with your boyfriend. I mean, can’t you understand unless I tell you every single time? Put yourself in my shoes, being alone with a girl who has a boyfriend.”
“What’s wrong? Yuu-chan, it’s not Yuu-chan… you’re not the one to say such cruel things!!”
Yuuji shook his head looking tired.
And the fact that there was no answer to anything he said made him realize that it was useless to say anything more to Airi.
“I understand now. I want to keep my distance from you for a while. I’m sick of being with you who don’t think about other people’s feelings… so why don’t you go home first? You’re just an eyesore.”
It’s not right, rejection, wanting to keep distance, disgusted, an eyesore……, all of these words were too harsh to be uttered by Yuuji.
There was no way Airi could endure them.
Biting her lip hard, Airi ran out of the classroom with tears streaming down her face.
Of course, Yuuji did not follow her. He is feeling rather refreshed to finally be able to say what he wants to say.
─ Yes, I should have spoken up clearly like this from the beginning.
Then I wouldn’t have had to suffer… Ahhh, I feel so refreshed. I’ve been holding in the bad air for a long time, but it feels like it’s all been replaced at once. I never dreamed that it would feel so good to express my true feelings.
I’m an idiot too… holding back all this time for no reason, but it’s all right, this is all right.
They’re going to hurt me… then I’m going to hurt them back. There is no reason to say that they are good and I’m not.
Yuuji was going to carry his bag and go home,……, but before he did so, he went to the three boys who had witnessed the whole thing.
“Why are you here!?”
“Here’s a coupon for free coffee at a coffee shop. There are three of them, so the three of you can use them. I apologize for the awkward atmosphere.”
“Oh! Thank you. Sakamoto-dono! I’ll give you this Yu-Oh card in exchange, that I will!
“…No, I don’t want it.”
“Such a snap!”
After that, I talked with them a little and left the classroom. It was just a casual conversation, but I was still able to talk to them without feeling the slightest bit of stress.
I was convinced that boys are easy to talk to.
It’s because they are not at all difficult to understand like women are.
First, my mother betrayed me, then Airi, then Youka. I’ve been betrayed by everyone I cared about.
When I think of my beloved mother and that day, it makes me bitter. I’m not sure if it was my mother’s fault or not, but I still can’t accept it.
My childhood friend, whom I trusted, overstepped my feelings. I’m not going to forgive her even if she didn’t have any malicious intent.
My junior, was cute, had the same hobbies, and was fun to be with. And yet she evoked the trauma that Mom and Airi had planted in me.
Then my sister …… ate the pudding.
─That’s right. I knew it.
Machida-kun was a good boy earlier, and Usui has never betrayed me. It’s the same with my other friends.
It’s always women who betray me.
It’s not a prejudice, but an undeniable fact.
I’ve had enough of being fooled by them.
I was walking down the hallway toward the entrance to the elevator when I was approached by a woman. I had no choice but to turn around.
“Oh, Sakamoto-kun! I’m so glad you’re still in school! The teacher gave me this printout to give to Sakamoto-kun.”
…She is Nakagishi Yuri-san, who is in the same grade, I believe.
I’ve heard that her boyfriend is Tachibana Yusei, the most handsome guy in the school, although they are in different classes.
She is the kind of woman who chooses men by their faces… I can’t trust her at all. I’m sure that once I receive the prints, she’ll say something nasty about me.
“I can’t trust you, so I can’t take it.”
“What? What! Why! Why am I being hated by a boy I’m talking to for the first time? I mean, hey, where are you going~?!”
I don’t want to be betrayed anymore.
It’s disgusting, lame, uncomfortable, and most of all, it’s hard… Being betrayed by someone you trusted, even after experiencing it three times, shows no sign of getting used to it. I trusted all three of them with all my heart, and I don’t want to go through that again.
So what can I do about it…?
That’s easy. Even a child can figure it out if you think about it for a minute.
The point is to stay away from them from the very beginning. That’s the simplest and best safety measure.
If you know from the beginning that women are treacherous creatures, you have to change your behavior from now on. Let’s stop getting involved with the existence of women.
Starting today, I will change myself.
I don’t want any more of this life of holding back what I want to say. I don’t know about Youka, but Airi will appear in front of me again when the heat cools down… but it doesn’t matter, I’ll get rid of her again and again because…
He hates them.
He now sees not only the three women who betrayed him but also old women and girls as his enemies. Just looking at a woman is enough to make him express rejection and dislike.
Thus began the curtain rising on Sakamoto Yuuji’s days of distrust of women.